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I, Landy, born in Singapore under the sign of Cancer, 22 this year, Temasek Polytechnic alumni, bread lover, decided that I'm so cool and you're just jealous.
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» Reflection.
Tuesday, February 9, 2016, 12:59 PM
Hi, I am back.

I thought my last post was at 2015, because the font was so small. Silly me. How could i have written anything when i was busy shuttling between hospital and home.

Reading back the post in 2014, my standard of english is really baddd. I dont think i am much better now, just.. not as poor. HAHAHA.

It is the second day of Chinese New Year, and it sure doesnt feels like one. (i actually have the time to read back my old post and blog, just think about it).

I think the past one year has been a challenging one, and i have grow alot from it. May i find strength in the challenges ahead.

 Landy,
just reflecting.

» i always cant think of a title. -_-
Monday, December 8, 2014, 8:49 AM
Finally having a set of computer of my own. It is definitely an experience to have, allowing me to blog at such hour. 

My mind are exploding with thoughts but i cant seems to phrase it out. School? Work? Family? I am feeling constipated, not physically but mentally.

I know that it concerns my parents, specifically my mom. Is it the guilt i am feeling for going on with what i want and neglecting her in the process?

To be true to oneself, it is really difficult to balance between accompanying her and going for my own stuff. I wanna go out with my own friends, or even alone. The amount of time i am willing to give to her does not coincide with her expectations.

I am not in the mood for care-giving all the time. I cannot be always there for her when she needs/wants me. Basically, i want to live my own life. It is this selfish thought that i have conflicting with the cultivated filial piety in me; not only torturous, but mental draining. It is on a repeat every now and then, the battle as to go or dont go. I wont be happy no matter what i choose, it is a losing battle. 

I miss the times when i felt truly carefree. Perhaps, i am just missing my childhood. Maybe, i am just overwhelmed by being an adult. Above are just one of the many things that occupies my mind.

I do hope that one day, she may recover from all these illness and lead her own life too.

Landy
learning to relax

» rinse and repeat
Sunday, September 28, 2014, 11:52 AM
It is the same every month, it is definitely me. The problem lies with me, isnt it?

Maybe, just maybe, we are not suited for each other?

landy,
dont wanna think anymore.