MY STORY, MY RULES!

sudden recall of major project groupmates

2012-02-06T11:08:00.003+08:00

im blogging through my phone! apparently i can only type in HTML format. lalala

so i was thinking about my grpmate. she has a very common name called -censor-
she is a friendly and enthusiatic person, on the surface, which makes her a fantastic actress.
during the period of my mp, i always trust her words when she could not make it. then, i realised i was being utterly stupid by letting her do whatever she wants. in the end, i had to shoulder every damn thing.

i only realised how stupid i was nearing the end of this mp. gosh. she only do things that is beneficial to her ONLY. she could actually skip a lecture just to complete the seemingly minor timesheet. sheesh.

i can say no more about her. she is the best of the worst.

landy, utterly disappointed

ranting, i am.

2012-01-30T21:33:00.002+08:00

i was trying out if i could just copy and paste this cos it kinda depicts how i am feeling now.

four more days and its the submission of my major project! I have to rush more!!

Too much distraction, maybe i should stay in school and do.

Landy, lalalala.

final lap

2012-01-20T19:24:00.004+08:00

Looking at my little note book, i have more than enough things to keep me occupied than to blog.

Feeling a little guilty for not doing what i am supposed to, but i really feel like blogging.

What am i supposed to be busy with now? Lets see...

Major project..yeah. right. These two words never fail to give me headache. I have been dragging the logbook completion for way too long. I really need to sit down for two whole hours with no internet connection, and i believe the logbook will be done. (: The logbook was one problem, the report is another. sometimes i feel really tired to kept thinking about all these "problems". they are not really problems, more like hurdles, waiting for me to jump over and with team mates who cannot really do much help, i can only rely on my own strength to jump over.

Nutrition in Disease, why did i even selected this module? cos i wanna understand how i can help ppl with disease with diet. I always regret choosing a nutrition module halfway through the sem cos it just overwhelming context to memorize. Still, i am glad i did not fail any of them. I do hope i can still make it for this one last nutrition module.

Im having a rather uncomfortable headache as im typing now.

shall stop here.

Landy, agony

a day that filter past...

2012-01-16T22:42:00.002+08:00

There is a need to recount what i did today, for fear i might just forget about it - not because i want to but it feels like it might just slip away like catching sand with fingers. The feeling is dislike.

Today was another weekday, just not the ordinary Monday that i been having. I do not need to rush to school early in the morning nor squeeze the bus with others. Was able to take things with my own sweet time.

Woke up at 11plus, time was slowly ticking away as i lazily climb out of my bed. I wasn't feeling alright - my mind wasn't ready for the day, yearning for the comfort of bed despite having more than 8 hours of rest. Perhaps the sleep wasn't a quality one. Before i realised, the clock strike 12. What was i doing at that time? 9-gagging, facebook, sms-ing - literally wasting my time.

I halted the time-consuming activities and decided to do something else, i think that, is productive. I clicked open my major project folder and started bury my head into those sickening files. It didn't take long for those annoying headache to come knocking my head, distracting me from being a good girl.

Then again, i didn't had much time left before i have to head down to school for project meeting and so i packed up and got ready for school. But i wasn't quite ready, i left my ezlink card at home and only realizing it before boarding the bus, after 10mins of waiting. Thinking that i will be running late if i were to go home and get the card, i called one of my team mate. Silly me, my team mate told me the meeting was re-scheduled to the following day. I went back home and continued my major project.

It was 4.15pm, when my dad ask if i still need to go to school. I replied yes, because some lazy lecturer wanted to talk to me face-to-face. =.= We met for barely 10 mins and it's settled, how awesome.

My day finally ended when i reached my beloved house, sending him his "light" dinner and dozing off while he was preparing for his book-in. Before that i went to TM for some shopping, was hoping he will come. oh well.

I wonder why am i so tired.

At this very moment, i am actually missing him. I just saw him couple of hours ago.

If you are reading this, remember to hug me tight when we meet next time kay?

Landy, weak.

Revamp..maybe not.

2012-01-15T21:41:00.003+08:00

Privatised my blog for no good reason.

Wanted to change my blogskin, but realised i really love the simplicity of this blogskin, thus decided to keep it.

Edited my templates - if you did not realised, i shortened the links. HAHA.

Well-spend saturday, with lots of fun. Pity i could not enter the water, it will increase my energy expenditure yo. Just saying.

Have the urge to go for dao huey tmr morning, shall see how.

Landy, tired

Notification

2012-01-08T19:34:00.002+08:00

This blog shall be privatized as of 9th Jan 2012, 0000hrs. (;

Thank you for your support.

Landy, typical

life is going to get a lil' better?

2012-01-05T17:50:00.003+08:00

These two days, or rather, this whole week has not been pleasant. Seemed like bad things just like to happen all at once. I surely hope that the set phrase "雨过天晴" apply.

At the beginning of this week, was almost getting into fight with my beloved due to some unhappy issues. I am glad we are sort of going back to normal. Just yesterday, my emotional actually reached threshold without me knowing and it just gushes out without any warning! Honestly, even i was shocked by my own behavior. At least from that incident, i know people do take notice of me and they do care. :3

What about today? HarHarHar. Needless to say, it did not really start off well. I thought it was cos i actually left my house at the stipulated timing. I boarded a double deck bus and went up to the upper deck. As the bus reaches the stop, i looked at the time on my phone and i was really happy. Finally a day i am not late for my lecture! I walked down the stair and my right leg gave way all of a sudden and i not sure why. I almost fell and roll down the steps like a humpy dumpy. I was lucky that i was holding on to the railing and a fleshy butt that i own, if not i will be screaming in pain.

Come to think of it, my butt still hurt a little.

The rest of the day...i was bugged by an annoying headache. :(

Oh well, this week is ending. Hope no more bad things. Shoo shoo bad luck! C:

Landy, happyagain.

this post does not have a title cos im sleepy.

2012-01-03T00:16:00.013+08:00

why does people like to change blog so often? im not just targeting you, if you are reading.

i have been sticking to this old old blog for years and never tot of changing it. Maybe cos i do not really like changes. kinda rigid person am i.

You know, some people usually speak of a certain point without mentioning the names. I do not really like those people cos i do not really understand them. I am those "some people" too, sad to say. Okay, this is like random fun facts. HAHA. :X

I am a rather straightforward person when im pissed off so i do expect same treatment for me when you are unhappy. At least i know what you are unhappy about, at least i could do sth! When you say i am always playing puzzle with you, did you ever think of how you behave yourself when you are with me? Have you ever opened your heart to me? I know i have always been the one overpowering the conversation. It hasn't been easy to open your heart, honestly.

As you know, your english is obviously of a higher level than me so why would you expect me to understand fully of what you are saying when you had kinda "coated" your words? I will appreciate a more direct explanation after the post. It isn't too much to ask, am i right? Instead of saying i dont understand you, why not try to make me understand? It is really sad to know that i dont really understand you. Im unhappy not because of infidelity or etc, is because i could not understand you despite reading your thoughts out loud, cos my english standard is just so weak. :( I might have misunderstood your meaning, and that's why im unhappy.

"Secrets? I’m full of it. Then again, who isn’t?" - Private

I don't have any secret, that is about me, kept from you. I am sure i didnt, unless i forgot. What about you? You never did share your past life willingly with me, without me prompting. i had to ask cos i did not want my unreasonable imagination to go wild. And your past life is link to your present. As a girl with fertile imagination, it is hard for me not to imagine. Kill me and the imagination stop, i think that is how serious it can be.

You share your 3 days with others, that i had never tried before. How could i not be jealous?You all had dinner together, played together, drank together, spend hours and hours of happy moments together. Could anyone understand how i feel?

I am a ridiculously petty girl, i supposed.

I feel disgusted by my behavior, like some stupid bitch seeking attention. I am desperately seekin' your attention. I find myself cheap. I actually gave my everything to you, do you know? I think that is why i am becoming so annoying. It is as though i cannot afford to lose you.

Perhaps, stepping a step back might solve the problem...?

Ultimately, it is my fault. Whatever it is, i will be the biggest loser. pathetic.

Landy, impatient, with-million-tots

seriously?

2011-12-28T08:54:00.003+08:00

Christmas is over~ and just THREE more days to the arrival of 2012 - holiday is ending.

GOSH~ what have i done during this whole holiday? i think i have been giving my life to MP bench working, rushing my ass off to get as many result as possible. Believe me~ i gotta make it! HAHA.

Okay, so right now i have this on-going major project that doesnt seems to be ending any time soon but i am just so vexed about it. I need to change this mindset of mine, its killing me. ;(

anyway, i decided to give myself a break by sleeping early yesterday. I slept at 10pm, yes! Usually it will be 1am, you know, like a late~~~ and i woke up at the same time (8am). D:

I supposed to be in school right now, starting on my bench work but i decided that i could do it later and thats why i started using comp. ;D

Well, before the end of 2011, i need to complete the following to save my pitiful soul ,

- Apel portfolio

- CSAS portfolio

- tidy up MP logbook

- clean the house thoroughly

I think thats all but not to forget there is still other projects running. lalalalala.

Landy, need-a-breather

its mp yet again.

2011-12-07T17:31:00.002+08:00

I had a rather happy life past two weeks. I started having regular meetings, updating the others about the progress of our bench work. I thought my major project is finally gonna be all THREE members working together. Yeah, i THOUGHT and i was WRONG.

Today, member A stepped into the lab, after two whole months. She was late, by an hour. I dont know what is her reason and i do not want to care. She was supposed to be assisting member N. So her first question was "What am i supposed to do?" I guided her in dry ashing steps and told her she will be in charge of doing this test from today onward. She seemed okay about it but she was obviously not listening to what i was instructing. I told her what to look out for and what not to do, she did it all. Im not sure is it on purpose or she just do not understand the reason behind those "do not(s)". Im obviously unhappy with that. What happened later on was maddening. She started questioning about the duration of the tests, a few times. The whole dry ashing takes about 4 hours maximum to finish. When the test finally end, she couldnt wait to leave. Member N and i was still busying doing other few tests and she couldnt bother asking if we need any help. She just wanna go home, saying she wanna study.

Dont i have term test too? Dont i need to revise? Isnt this Major Project a GROUP WORK? Why are you in such a hurry to go home? Will you die to stay just a couple of hours more to help out?

whatever. Im bombarding my mind with thought after thought. My whole mind is about major project. sometimes i really think im very cheap, taking everything by myself. Is it because i have a very bad leadership quality? Or communication skill? Why does it seemed like people doesnt understand what i said at all?

Next, member N wasnt any better. He kept assume things and putting words into people's mouth. what is wrong with him? One experiment, more than 3 mistakes and is not minor. When i reprimand, he also turn speechless. He just couldnt understand the principle of the test, what can i do?

Im really tired. Things are piling up like a mountain. I have to clear it before it topple and hurt me. Very much i wish to distribute the work, i just cant. They have completely drained that trust away.

Landy, helpless.

finally...

2011-11-05T19:27:00.002+08:00

I had an emotional break down yesterday.

The sadness welled up each time my arm/hand got scalded.

There was this major spillage onto my hand that caused me to completely lost it.

Hot alkali dripped down my hand, sense of touch became retarded all of a sudden.

Million of things running through my mind as i placed my hand under cool running water to wash off the alkali.

"Why am i the only one in the lab?"

"why do i have to do everything myself?"

"why cant they have more initiative?"

"am i a bad leader?"

"what else can i do?"

.....

I tried hard to force myself not to cry but the feelings was unbearable.

Tell me now, am i stupid?

At that very moment, I find myself so weak. My tears flowing endlessly as thought all the sadness that i have been tolerating are exploding out through my crying.

I swear i will hyperventilate if i didnt control my breathing at that time.

Today, i spend the whole day rotting. I did literally nothing but my mind wasn't at peace. Im thinking of my MP. My body was procrastinating but my mind isn't going with it. Its an annoying feeling.

I have to clear the thorns before i can start on my work again. Efficiency level has dropped tremendously. This has got to stop, before sth worse happen.

Landy, injured.

different approach

2011-11-02T19:09:00.003+08:00

Im tired.

Okay, who isn't?

I think is those who doesn't use brain when doing things.

Having mini chat here and there with frens who are also leader for their own MP, we all have the same complains about team mates not working up to expectation. They are thinking that leaders have to do everything for them? I dont think answer fall from sky, then why are they not working for it and expect it to pop out from nowhere? Are they not using their brain?

I have taken the attitude of heck care. You know, do whatever you like, i am not gonna care.

So, it been 2 whole months since i started my MP. It has progressed far from scratch but its still not enough cos the project should be at the stage of getting results and not solving problems. If i can succeed in getting the result i want this friday, it will be a breakthrough. I hope it works.

Thats all for now.

Landy, sick of MP.

change

2011-10-03T18:32:00.002+08:00

Okay. So i have to accept the fact i am in a terrible MP group with two below average (in term of brain power) team-mates, that does not mean im gonna fail.

Lets see, one of them is on par to an academic-retard and another is nearly a blur-cock. All i can foresee is that i will be doing most of the work, just as what im doing now. The final move i will make is to mark them down terribly for the peer evaluation. I was thinking if they are really that bad, i will just tell my supervisor about it and see what fuck-up move(s) he can provide. Or maybe he will just blame me for possessing poor leadership quality. =.=

Ranting time (you can save your time by not reading this portion. ;D)

I just dont understand why is there people with such poor character exist in this world. If you cant study or dont wanna study, PLEASE dont drag other people down by accepting to be in the same group as them. The lecturers who distributed the group is "awesome" ttm ( im talking in general, just to clarify). They always mix the pupils with good and poor grade tgt so that the gap between score will not be too big. I think they should persuade the weak students to either work harder or just quit sch. When i said WEAK, it means you are scoring a gpa of 1.xx. You are wasting your parents money by scoring so low. Think about it, will you be proud about your certificate when you graduate? Its not as though im a genius or sth, Im a 2.xx pointer myself. For the very least, i dont slack as much as you do. I have fren who scored 1.xx and she worked hard to become a 2.xx now. She is not those clever type of student but she is focus with her work. If she can do it, i dont see why you cant, idiot. And for the one who is scoring better than a 2, please dont think that you can continue to be a blurcock. Its the misfortune of your patients if you managed to get your degree.

I totally cannot stand people who are NOT FOCUS. BWADP!

Landy, give up on MP teammates.

Major project drives me crazy.

2011-09-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

Yes, literally the title.

IM GOING CRAZY BECAUSE OF MY MAJOR PROJECT.

Why did i even join that group in the first place? I should have waited for lecturer to dump me into some fantastic group if i couldnt get a group myself. Why am i so stupid?

I know i will not be able to handle this project alone, i know it. Im really expecting my team members to share the project burden. Why cant they just help? All they know is to say " i dont know", "oh, i return that knowledge to teacher". WTF? then you expect me to know larh? I aint genius please.

And good, now i have reached the bottleneck. They better have some good answer, if not lets sink together. =.=

Landy, ultimately frustrated.

share...and lots more.

2011-08-20T00:17:00.004+08:00

how do you share information? how do you consider you are sharing a piece of information?

So i haven been sharing (i think), according what my boy said - "you are not sharing, you are just dumping it to me and leave."

So how do you share? There is supposed to be interaction...hmm..so you are supposed to let others talk too. Its seemed like my nature to just kept talk, loudly and loudly, also dont know for what.

[Just realised, im too tired to even tidy up my sentences. Im literally typing them out as how im thinking right now.]

And back to topic - all these while i have not been sharing, all i did was to say my "speech" ( which is never-ending) and expect people to listen. I do agree that im actually talking alot, and i should tame it down. Okay, that is one thing to work on.

And next, im throwing my bad mood to others - which is bad as well. I sound very uneducated and uncivilized, don't i? You know, some thoughts pop up when i was feeling unhappy - we should keep quiet when we are bad mood cos it will only effect us and not effect others. Awesome eh? So i should just keep quiet next time. Okay, that is another thing to work on.

Lastly, i have an issue. If i start talking less or even keep quiet, where can my unhappiness go to? I need an outlet, dont i? So i thought about the most wonderful method is to BLOG! Since this blog has already consist of so many :( posts by me, a few more wouldn't harm uh? (:

In conclusion, i need to talk less daily, don't talk when in bad mood and BLOG MORE! haha. People just couldn't stand me when im grumpy (and im often grumpy?).

Sounds like a mask need to be put on again cos the real me is too loud and chatty. D:

To whoever is reading, Good night. (;

Landy, sleepy.

bored...

2011-08-15T19:08:00.002+08:00

im seriously bored. im sleeping more than 12 hours a day for most of this month. Its pulling me to the level of useless. rawr.

I get more lethargic everyday. Its like the more i sleep, the more tired i get. Oh MY! i wanna break away this cycle! :(

Everyone is studying, except me, wasting my life away. TOTALLY :( please.

TMR <- Im SO GONNA START EXERCISING!

and and, im so gonna get a LIFE.

Landy, trying-to-be-motivated.

): ----> (:

2011-08-12T22:45:00.003+08:00

I was once lost and now found. hurhur. <-- random sentence. That wasn't what i wanna say. just type cos it came to my mind. :P

I was pretty unhappy with life days ago and after some MSN chats (which i haven been doing for a long time), I was enlightened by myself. O.O! Much thanks to him.

And so.....

IM HAPPY NOW, like now! (HAHA.)

I have a few goals to achieve for this sem break and im gonna set new ones. LOL!

Let's see..

√ Watch Captain America

X Watch Horrible boss

X Start an exercise regime

√ Complete SIP report

X buy new shoes

√ Buy new bag <-- I JUST BOUGHT IT TODAY! HOO!

X Learn Japanese

X Buy watch <- perhaps?

I think the list is getting a lil' long.

lalalala..

Shall end here. DOTS!

Landy, hard-hard-expression

over-whelming sadness

2011-07-31T23:03:00.002+08:00

I think.. i am fake.

I am constantly holding on to a shield and resisting people from coming close to me, even to people who are supposed to be close to me. Often, i will hide my feelings so that people will not notice.

I am always saying things that i want, in its opposite meaning. Hoping that people will understand.

All these is the "me" years ago, and the "me" now.

Perhaps, i have changed.

But i still feel sad when people cant get how i am thinking when i gave clues, hoping that they will find out and they don't.

Tonight, i am feeling lonely. It is those kind that will pull your mood down to the rock bottom. I think i will take quite a while to climb back up, alone.

I think i have never felt this way before, in a very long time. I find myself, beneath the attractive appearance, ugly. It is filled with jealousy, resenting that another person has something and i don't have, and wish the other person to be deprived of it.

This blog post started out because i am unhappy. I am unhappy because i let go of what i want when i actually don't wanna let go. I am unhappy cos i thought i could manage and yet i failed. I failed terribly at handling my emotions. And it suck even more is that i do not want to show it to others, when i actually long for comfort.

As i am typing, i am started to feel insecure. A stupid girl that worries about nothing.

Something good out of blogging - realization.

Landy, slowly-getting-better

when random-ness strike.

2011-07-27T23:31:00.004+08:00

i think i wanna blog, but i not sure what i wanna blog. HAHA.

Aimless blogging.

i clicked login without typing password just now, and the email was another acct. #epic

I shall talk about my internship. Okay, its taking my life away - it's my life for the past nearly-four-months. -.-

My internship is ending in...TWO more days. confusing fuuuuling. I want the money money money~ though it's just that pathetic few hundreds but working isn't as difficult as i thought it would be. Im getting money to enjoy yo. LOL! The moment i think about me having nearly zero income after my internship, my mood go down down dowwwn. -.-

I NEED a JOB, part-time though. haha.

I must also talk about my last week of SIP, even though it is yet to end. Im tasked with never-ending assignments. I think they are a bunch of badly-abused employee. -.- Im like the tiny beam of lights that brightens their day by that little bit. They cannot finish de all dump to me only. Oh, Im a dumping ground too. -.- Dump to me and it will be cleared. =.=

Ultimate sian-ness please. I left with TWO more DAYS! I have ...let me think... another power point to do? one big pile of documents to be filed? and the misc that i wanna do very much? oh oh, not forgetting the ever-so-last-minute tasks that they love to give. I wonder when can i pass back whatever i did to the respective owner, they are always busy. Passing THEIR things BACK to THEM is DISTURBING them. holy.

I have sudden thought about my breakfast tmr. since you are reading, might as well type here. I gonna eat da po luo bao when i woke up and have BIG BREAKFAST when i reach clementi. GOOD IDEA YEAH?! :D

Okay, its going 12 and i need my beauty (and revitalising) sleep desperately. LOL.

ME WANT HOLIDAY. =.=

Landy, random-like-a-hamster

I'm sad

2011-07-08T00:16:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Why do some people have so much free time while others is so not free to even have sufficient rest?

Why do I feel so unwell recently? On top of the allergy that is causing itchy rashes, I have nearly unbearable headaches. The headaches doesn't go away easily.

I wish for my boyfriend to be free. I wish for him to be by my side, comforting me when I'm in discomfort. I wished.

I wished for many things. I wished I am healthier. I wished I could get over pain easily. I wished, it's seemed childish and hopeless to wished for so many things and get nothing achieved.

You know, I wished that my boyfriend reads my blog and know how I feel cos I don't know how to tell him
All these. I think he is too tired, it will be very selfish of me to bother him further. Did I abused the word "wish"? Haha.

I'm just feeling blue. I have not met my boyfriend for...seemed like a very long time to me. I tot I could meet him today, really. Things just don't go according to what we expect. Haiis. What to do. I wonder does he know I missed him alot, to the point it hurts.

Goodnight everyone.

Landy, sleepily sad.

finally a new post.

2011-07-04T23:49:00.004+08:00

hello blog.

How have you been? doing well?

haha, what a corny way to start my post. Just how long have i not blog in my own personal blog? i have been blogging all this while, just not in this blog. this is so sickening cos the blog post i did was just for the sake of posting. What a blog meant to me is about posting things i WANT to post and not what i HAVE to post. You know, it's more like a want than a need.

wait, i need my spec. cant type properly.

*away from keyboard....*

Okay! got my spec. haha.

So what have i been doing and why do i wanna blog again after so long? or rather, why have i not been blogging? Crazy. Reason simple - i didn't feel like blogging and when i wanna blog, i dont have the time. This suck isn't it? And i finally have the time and mood to blog today! *clap hand* (lameshit =.=)

And so, i have been on internship for 3 months. Seriously, i think this 3 months really gave me a great insight of what working life is. working life = suck ttm. Every morning, i have to wake up by 7am and i will still be late if i leave my hse at 8am. (im supposed to leave my hse by 7.30am btw but i always drag. HAHA.) i find myself leading a very no-life lifestyle for the past 3 months. it has been internship, online modules and boyfren. Im getting kinda sick of it. i meant, let's see what i have been doing for the past 3 mths.

Monday

8 am to 6pm - work(internship)

6 to 7.45pm - Travelling home (YES, i need about 1 and half hour to get home!)

7.45 to 8pm - cool down from walking home.

8pm to 10pm - watch tv / dinner time

10pm to 12 pm- trying my very best to do online modules and play.

-Repeat the whole cycle for Tuesday and Thursday-

What about wed and fri?

8am to 6pm - work(internship)

6pm to 7.30pm - rushing to meet boyfren

7.30pm to 9.30pm - dinner and walk around.

9.30pm to 11pm - travelling home.

Can i have a more interesting life?

like go out and play? No, i will be too tired to do so.

How about watching movie? no, there isn't any more tickets available cos the movie we wanna watch is selling fast.

I wonder why am i even blogging cos right now my mind isn't in the right state. im having itchy rashes all over my body. it comes and goes as it like. it's frustrating ttm.

im not happy right now. hello, anyone there? can someone talk to me? maybe anyone, i just want him - my boyfren.

he is always busy. he is in army right now. i cant blame him for not being beside me cos he is very tired himself. army tortures him to no end, treating him like some cheap labour. i cant ask much from him too. i cant expect him to comfort me when he isn't feeling good himself, right?

blog, all i can do is rant here. well, just let me be.

i think im typing incoherently. my life has been very routine. i wanna break from this routine. even when im using computer, i only visits the few websites - facebook, youtube...what else? LOL. this sounds so pathetic. fear not, im gonna stop "patronizing" facebook. youtube is interesting, i always look at diff video. okay, im trying to change my routine here, to make myself feel better.

The rashes is still not going away. Im scratching it like once in a while. Hoping i can stop scratching it. Maybe i should cut away my hair, its pretty long, able to touch my lower back - consider long right? it's triggering my itch. -.-

anyway, just clicked preview. I have typed pretty long. I think i should stop.

oh~~~ too bad. i wanna type sth that is deep inside my heart, perhaps i should skip it.

Landy, lonesome.

fruity nutritious

2011-05-26T09:51:00.003+08:00

HELLO, if there is anione reading this, can help click on the website below ? I need the clicks from everyone. This is a new blogspot, that was instructed by my boss, created by me.

FRUITY NUTRITIOUS

It is a blog full of recipes, if you love to cook, do visit this website for more recipes to try. :D

The link: http://fruitynutritious.blogspot.com/

Landy, despo for clicks.

i wanna blog.

2011-05-24T11:34:00.003+08:00

and i really wanna to.

I actually login yesterday and wanna blog cos i realised its like awesome - blog again after exactly1 month without any planning. HAHA~!

But fail~~ cos yesterday was really busy. even when im typing this post now, im typing with alot of pausing in between - cos im working. :X

yeah, im on internship now.

I have been shuttling between the east to the west, its tiring ttm.

AND I USED MORE THAN 5HOURS TO TYPE 1 POST. D;

I ALREADY NO TIME TO BLOG AND MY COMPANY STILL ASK ME TO CREATE AND MAINTAIN A BLOG. ZzZ

and this blogger still giving me trouble. -.-

shall blog again soon, when im less free.

Landy, busy like a pig

what the prob?

2011-04-23T13:32:00.001+08:00

forget it.

Landy, SOS?

To be great is to be misunderstood- Ralph Waldo Emerson

2011-03-30T17:45:00.005+08:00

I know all this is like a late realization. I was in dazed for the past one week i supposed.

DREAMS III is finally over! The report is pending at the moment. Technically Dreams III is done~ :D Main Comm Interview is also done and the result was announced after DREAMS III concert.

Now left with the handover ceremony and yeah~ QM duty for 10/11 is done~!

Now, what follows is SIP and Food safety module. Does it sound so abnormal that my 3.1 module have started and will be running tgt with my SIP?

I had also come to realised, you cant stop others from thinking what they wanna think cos simply- is their brain. Unless you can control their brain. haha, rubbish. -.-

Sometime, i think is good to think about yourself more. Worried so much that others will misunderstand is simply wasting your own life away cos if they did misunderstood you, it wouldnt make a difference by being worried. Is either you correct it or you ignore it. haha. I choose to ignore. (:

Landy, realizer

Counting down 4 days...

2011-03-15T11:51:00.002+08:00

went for main comm interview - part 2 yesterday, i was the interviewer. HAHA.
Apparently i have a scary fierce face, all the subcomm came in said they were scared of me. -.-
Had a 3 hours meeting to settle the main comm issues. woah.
and i am going to release the result on friday night. hahahaha. *evil*

oh, and back to me, i have been having weird dreams recently. maybe cos too stressed up. :X

4 more days and it will end. (:

Shall blog again thn.

Landy, moodless

undescribable

2011-03-09T12:52:00.002+08:00

1 day, 2 days, 3 days...7,8,9..

Just realised, my last post was the on the last day of February and i actually got distracted while typing.
Even since the last post, i was kind of occupied by CCA stuffs.
I took one year to organise a concert and i have yet prepared for the concert till now. - thats what others see.
As much as i dont want to be negative, the feelings i get from others just makes me feel sad.
Maybe i complained too much, maybe i am just not that capable...maybe.

I just wanted a little more attention, yeah, maybe i was wrong to even have that thought.
I have always take and never give, i supposed, thats me. Wondering have i changed, who can i ask?

So much to learn, to take care, to take note, to give up.

Is anyone out there?
I really hope for someone to talk to.

landy, dejected

Updates

2011-02-28T16:55:00.002+08:00

I told myself that i will blog today, and i am here as promised. wahaha.

I was flooded with lots of thoughts and feelings yesterday, and i couldnt recall any at this very moment(except that i need to blog). oh well.

hmmm...

Yeah, kind of recalling it back.

You know what, it is going 1 year, 1 year of me being a QM in Production Crew. A whole AY filled with only work. That's how my year two is like : work.

I dont even feel much when i went for 2011 countdown, its like "oh, we are entering 2011."
Here, last day of year 2, I am having chain after chain of thoughts and emotions i never had before. I still remember how i whined about me being selected as a QM, cos i know little about repairing the systems and all. I still remember how i get stressed up because of Dreams. I am stepping down in another 2 months, Dreams will be held in 3 weeks later. like awesome only. I am not even graduating, why am i having feelings as though i am going to?

I know i shouldnt go for main comm position anymore, no matter how much i want to take. No.

And i just got distracted. Win.

Landy, moodless

Commitment(s)...

2011-02-12T19:54:00.004+08:00

Do you count your family as one of your commitment? I think im blessed; my family doesnt count as a commitment to me. I doesn't have to give up most of my time to them. I think cos they are understanding. They dont ask for my time. good for me. :D

So...What are some of "i-deemed-as" commitment?

1.Production Crew!!!
2.School Work
3.Myself (LOL!)
4.Boyfriend (yeah, cos he very troublesome. HAHAHAHAHA!)
5. Friends [obviously, especially you, yeah, you know who you are. (: ]

I think thats all. HAHAHA. but all this is heavy duty please.

This post is random, totally. xP

Im using gordon's computer. HAHAHA.

Landy, (:

Story time...

2011-01-26T22:11:00.006+08:00

Once upon a time, there's a rat living in a kitchen hole ever since it came to this earth. One day, she decided to leave the kitchen hole, the place where she had lived for her whole life up till now. She wants to find out what it is like outside.

She ran and ran when she suddenly banged onto something...

"BANG!"

"You little horny bastard!" she shouted.

She raised her head and realised she bumped onto a tree. Feeling stupid, she carried on her trip to explore the outside world, so she continue running.

"Bang~!"

Oh no, there she banged onto something again. This time, she looked up and saw a squirrel. :3

She said, " why are you so big?"
squirrel replied, " no, im not big."
"yes, you are." said the rat.
"no, i am not." said the squirrel.

There they go on and on arguing when squirrel suddenly said, " okay, stop. This is getting no way. Why are you here in the first place? I had never seen a rat in the wild before."

"why do you care?" the rat replied coldly.

"Oh, how about joining me on an adventure since you looked so free?" squirrel asked.

" I'll love too!" replied the rat excitedly.

Squirrel and rat ran off into the wild, taking in everything they could see, smell, hear and taste. They saw the beautiful and vibrant sunflower fields. They smelled the musky scent of the rainforest. They listened to the sea breeze and the waves crashing gently onto the shore. They tasted the freshness in the fruits found growing around them.

One night, squirrel and eat nestled together amongst the roots of an old tree, after a long day they had adventuring. Squirrel asks rat, why did you leave the comfort of your kitchen hole and into the wild? I'm sure the kitchen could provide you with a shelter more sturdy than any tree, and better tasting foods than any fruits or nuts you can find in the wild.

Rat gave the question a short moment of thought and replied simply, there was something missing in that kitchen hole. It might be the safest choice to stay there, but i feel nothing that place other than what it could provide me with. I wanted to run wild alongside my passions and let my feelings roam to whenever they long to be!

Squirrel felt the burning passion for freedom in rat, and in that instance, he offered her an opportunity to experience life in the wild, living a life carefree and unrestrained. Living by her own rules.

To be continue...

Landy & Waihong, awesomely cock.

TOxic

2011-01-23T12:58:00.003+08:00

Baby, can't you see? I'm callin'
A guy like you should wear a warnin'
It's dangerous
I'm fallin'

There's no escape, I can't wait
I
need a hit, baby, give me it
You're dangerous
I'm lovin' it

Too
high, can't come down
Losing my head
Spinning 'round and 'round
Do
you feel me now?

With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're
toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted
to you, don't you know that you're toxic?

And I love what you do, don't
you know that you're toxic?

It's getting late to give you up
I took
a sip from a devil's cup
Slowly
It's taking over me

Too high,
can't come down
It's in the air
And it's all around
Can you feel me
now?

With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm
slippin' under
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you,
don't you know that you're toxic?

And I love what you do, but you know
that you're toxic
Don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of
your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin' under
With a taste
of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you, don't you know that you're toxic?

With a taste of your lips, I'm on a ride
You're toxic, I'm slippin'
under
(Toxic)
With a taste of a poison paradise
I'm addicted to you,
don't you know that you're toxic?

Intoxicate me now with your lovin' now
I think I'm ready now, I think I'm ready now
Intoxicate me now with your
lovin' now
I think I'm ready now

Landy, intoxicate-me-now.

P.S. I think her crystal suit is nice. :X

lab~

2011-01-22T20:40:00.005+08:00

I tried to blog using my handphone, obviously cannot. LOL.

The page couldnt load.

whatever.

let me talk about my lab.

Nice right? wahahaha

I like the last testube.

thats it.

LOL

Landy, tired.

Random

2011-01-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

i bloghop once every few day, to a few blogs.
But then hor, recently, ppl are not updating their blog as often( including me). haha.

I wanna read sth but cant read cos ppl never update. im so sad.

people reading my blog, update your blog yo.

i go for my uys talk liao.

Shall update again. :D

Landy, random

Hectic

2011-01-13T23:05:00.003+08:00

My neck hurts for the entire week, glad that it is recovering. (:
It is all bruised from neck to shoulder, result from not taking good care of myself. :(
Who to blame? the pillow! ==

Just when the neck pain was not over, my period come and adominal pain follows.
Random cramps appear as and when it likes, how i wish i could control it. haha.
Discomfort follows. Truely hope that all these will over by next week.

Body has been packed with discomfort and pain.

What about my time?

After new year, all i can say is, 2011 is fast!
13 days leh, the moment i realised it, its 13th Jan le leh!

Packed with project, assignments duedate.
Just when i finished last term projects and assignments, i was once again packed with more projects and assignments.

PDM mockup
PDM portfolio and marketing portfolio
PDM SE
AdFS SE
ComNu project part 2
ComNu supermarket tour
alot more...

And top of all these, DREAMS MEMO IS APPROVED. OMGFBBQ. I must be lucky. I was thinking my next co-ordinator point is gg. Who know SAA is so kind to give me a chance to get leadership award. Awesome ttm eh?

Dreams approved and everything has to rush cos it totally clash with alot of things. New year is roughly 2 weeks away. After new year, 2 week later is study week then sem test. AWESOME PACKED RIGHT? -.-

And before i know, i think it'll be march. The month where i have the most feelings of all.

HOLIDAY, DREAMS actual show, SIP briefing.

APRIL~! start of SIP and me is going to STEP DOWN. awesome.

THIS YEAR STARTED SO AWESOME. oh my..

Hope i dont suffocate.

Landy, anxious

beginning, yet again.

2011-01-01T22:36:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ;D

:(

2010-12-25T14:23:00.000+08:00

Landy, sad

solitary

2010-12-25T14:10:00.004+08:00

Who can i go to?

Landy, sad

Jealousy.

2010-12-15T23:27:00.004+08:00

The title has been on my mind for at least 2 hours. i was thinking putting it as unreasonable but i am always unreasonable so i decided to put other title. :X There are numerous things on my mind too but i dont know how to phrase it. There is things like packing my cupboard, folding clothes, etc, those not-very-urgent stuffs. Oh well, i have kinda settled those for now.

My cupboard takes forever to pack. (:

Oh well..

Let's just talk about the one that i feel oh-so-strongly today.

why "Jealousy" as title?

i complain alot but this time, i cant complain much about this. It will seemed like im being very unreasonable.

I had seen people being good to their parents. I think my parents isn't as blessed, their children all like 不孝顺.

That aside, i am actually jealous about people being good to their parents. what the duck am i thinking? Isn't it a good thing that there's still people so filial? Sth must be wrong with me erh?

It just brings me that unpleasant thought that im not as important.

Imagine both his mother and i drop into the sea, i will die. cos i cant swim and i dont expect him to save me. (i should learn swimming in this case. haha.)

I just have to change the way i think, to feel better.

Unavoidable, i thought about the past, it wasn't as bad as i think. Placing me as priority, i dont have the slightest hint of being a substitute. Maybe i am spoilt. hmm..that's not an excuse for being unreasonable. haha.

so yeah, changing mindset to be happy girl. (:

Landy, unreasonable

desired.

2010-12-06T09:41:00.003+08:00

Will you think of me when you hear this song? :3

Landy

Hope.

2010-12-05T16:30:00.004+08:00

I was about to get anxious attack half an hour ago when this friend of mine talk to me.

We started talking. I wasn't using a very friendly tone and he sensed it. I told him the problems and he gave me some advices throughout the chat. It is just some simple we-all-know-it things but i have totally forgotten cause i was so troubled by the issue.

I always think that im alone and no one is able to help me. Well, you got it. Im wrong.
There have been numerous times when people tell me, "If you need help, i am here."
Sure enough, there are plenty of people that cant wait for you to fall. At the very same time, there are people who are willing to hold you when you fall.

There are also people that wants to help but dont know how to, you cant blame them for being helpless but to be thankful enough for the thoughts.

Im really thankful for this friend, maybe he was just bored when he talked to me, he help me when im feeling lost. (:

Things are catching up pretty fast. Im left with two month to make sure everything is on track. I hope i can make it, no, i will make it. (:

"The capacity for hope is the most significant fact of life. It provides human beings with a sense of destination and the energy to get started." - Norman Cousins

Well, another 1 week to another mini battle. I have to win. C:

Landy, hopeful

Updates...

2010-11-28T01:57:00.004+08:00

what a title. =.=
Okay, this is simply because i couldnt think of any title. (obviously)

Life hasn't been passing by this fast before.
Hey, i tot it's still oct! nono~ it's going dec!
Everyone is talking about Xmas.

Maybe i should just blog about my whole 2010 life on 31th dec. haha.

Recently, mood has been bad. very bad.
People around me suffered. I suffered too.
It's been a week of torture.
And hope it will be sunshine after the rain. :D

Was using facebook earlier on.
Saw a few pics update.
They were having fun, i guess.
I think, afterall, im not a very people-person.
I dont blend with people around me very much. Passive mode.
And people dont blend with me either. haha.
Others blended very well, one big family.
I think im like a..very distant relative.
related, but not close. haha.
And this affirm my decision, slim chance that i will change.

i truely hope that everything will be fine. (;

one more term, im out.

Landy, justfeelliketyping

School life

2010-11-15T16:47:00.002+08:00

It isn't that tough right?

I supposed we plan it well, we'll enjoy.

people around me kept saying "enjoy your campus life while you can".

maybe cos i haven step into society. I cant really appreciate all these.

by the time i know how to appreciate, i think too late liao. haha.

Or maybe it's just me. i dont seemed to be enjoying.

lonely soul walking around school campus.

haha.

Landy, solo-kia :X

-

2010-11-13T13:26:00.002+08:00

maybe i am just jealous, over the things i cant get.

often, a change in mindset will solve the problem.

Problem is, you cant change it in a snap of fingers.

awesome.

procrastination does little help.

maybe it's just me. i have to change.

sth is wrong with me.

i feel fake.

gosh.

homework's piling up. =.= dont like this feelings.

hey, anibody there? im feeling insecure.

im actually getting used to negative feelings. =.=

landy, perflexed.

紫薇

2010-11-06T16:16:00.002+08:00

　
宋代诗人杨万里：“似痴如醉丽还佳，露压风欺分外斜。谁道花无红百日，紫薇长放半年花。”

生态习性
喜光，稍耐阴；喜温暖气候，耐寒性不强；喜肥沃、湿润而排水良好的石灰性土壤，耐旱，怕涝。萌芽性强，生长较慢，寿命长。

相关传说　　
传说如果你的家周围开满了紫薇花，紫薇仙子将会眷顾你，给你一生一世的幸福。在我国民间有一个关于紫薇花来历的传说。说在远古时代，有一种凶恶的野兽名叫年，它伤害人畜无数，于是紫微星下凡，将它锁进深山，一年只准它出山一次。为了监管年，紫微星便化作紫薇花留在人间，给人间带来平安和美丽……

Landy, blushlikeflower.

Believe (:

2010-11-06T02:22:00.001+08:00

what a morning.

2010-11-01T09:20:00.003+08:00

Early in the morning, i had 1 round of treasure hunt. It was so fun. I sweated like pig looking for my pink rubber band. I rmb-ed i had one in my bag. IT JUST DISAPPEAR..nice one.

I dashed out of my house thinking i am late. i was supposed to leave house by 8.20am but i left at 8.30am.
Reached the bus stop. wait, wait and wait. 8.50am. finally the bus came.
two bus 8 came, packed with people.
I was going late so heck larh. *squeeze*

And yeah, i reached school. I chiong all the way to tut room but no one was there. The first tot was " is there no tut today?" thn i took out my file, wanting to check the study guide. I saw my timetable first. PDM tut at 10am. DAMN! WHY DID I COME SO EARLY? SQUEEZING THROUGH THE DAMN PACKED BUS.

zzz...

is only 9.24am.

i wonder how my day will continue today.

I WANT TO SLEEP. DAMMIT.

Landy, bad mood.

(:

2010-10-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

learning lesson...

2010-10-30T12:06:00.005+08:00

12 days, should i wait for another 2 more days to update? to make it a whole two weeks with no updates?
haha, that's dumb.

well, been through quite a few things over this period of time.
I came to know quite a few things too. There are quite a few things remain unchanged as well.

Firstly, do not assume people know.
rather, we should assume they know nothing, nothing at all.
Can just treat everyone like dumb idiot, cos human brain aren't 100% utilised. People tend to forget things. And when all this happened, arguments will arise.

Secondly, just tell the truth to the people you love.
I always afraid to tell the truth, afraid that they might scold. But they dont bite, seriously. They wouldnt really kill us if we say sth real wrong. I should have been more truthful. I wasn't sure what i was afraid of, maybe is just the unknown fear in me. Well, at least i learn? haha. I hope i will be more tactful.

Thirdly, help within your capabilities.
Isn't it a very obvious point? Actually the title should be : learn to say no. but yeah, is around the same meaning uh? maybe not. well, you get what i meant. If i cant make it, means i cant make it due to various reasons. I shouldn't because i will feel guilty so i didnt reject cos, in the end, i wouldn't do the task as well and i will still be guilty cos i didnt make it for the other one. So why am i hesitating? (dammit. LOL.)

Lastly, do not talk unneccesarily.
That's something people will slowly get it as they grow. Cos, many a times, it will only invite unfriendly stares by those very serious people. And i find it is not a need to talk much anymore...you know, you get no reply back after several tries. It just..dampen my mood. why cause myself to be moody yarh? (:

Yeah, over this period of time, i also know people around me better. Even though i didnt had much contact with all of them, i observed. I can only say : human ain't perfect.

And yeah! I heard alot ppl talking about they being this way, so is either you accept or you reject. I mean, what are self-reflection for? What does "improve" means to you? what does "changes" means to you? People do not own you anything that they have to put up with your poor-attitude. At least i apologise and not to "add oil" to the spark cause i dont want to burn the whole thing downnn. Talk with sincerity and people will listen. Respect is earned and not you beg/scold/nag/whack will get.

well well, try to get use to it eh? if not just ignore. :D

I wonder...does anione do daily reflection about themshelves? (maybe when they are not very very exhausted after a day)

Landy, blank.

wonderful day (:

2010-10-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

today is fun~~

went for a painting session( but i didnt finish it) :P

then went for dinner.
Laughed like some mad women. hahaha..

been wasting my holiday off..not anymore as school is starting soon.
Shall not waste anymore time.
gonna plan it well. :D

Landy, happy.

annoyed yet again

2010-10-11T17:07:00.003+08:00

my arm still hurts alittle, should be okay by tmr (i hope). haha.
lazing around at home like some disabled. -.-

Others seemed so fun with their holiday. Im bored.

There is icecream man ringing downstair..feel like buying. ._.!

oh..and i was talking about my arm.
Apparently i dislike people to ask me questions, be it in the form of concern.
I get irritated.
You can ask me once but not the second time, i will get annoyed. =.=

just take it that my EQ is super low larh, can?

Landy, annoyedbyquestions.

injured arm again and again

2010-10-08T20:40:00.002+08:00

what is wrong this week? the SAME arm was hurt twice. recovered and injured again. what the dots.

and now i can only type with one hand. rawr.

landy, unlucky.

wasted.

2010-10-05T19:52:00.002+08:00

i wasted whole of my tuesday.
I DID NOTHING, nothing at all.

I was in a half-awake mode from 11am till 7.30pm.
only then i stopped it, it's causing me to be very unhappy for no apparent reasons.
damn.

i left 4 hours to the start of another day, will i be able to make my whole day not-so-wasted?
will i repeat the whole cycle again?
sleeping late, waking up late...feeling tired/sleep/lethargic the whole day..*dislike* :(

i have barely 3 weeks holiday left, dislike this sem holiday, seriously. :(

im having this damn negative thinking of me-is-utter-useless girl.

landy, depressed.

the vampire diaries

2010-10-01T00:20:00.006+08:00

I been watching this series for the past few days.
Okay, im addicted to it. I just wanna watch finish the whole season asap.
I wanna to know the ending.
I should have known that the ending wouldnt be what i expected.
My mind kept thinking about what's going to happen next.

And now i watched finished the whole season 1, i cant wait to watch season 2.

I cant get enough of Ian Somerhalder. :P

(continue reading to know why...hehe)

This is eps 5.

This is katherine. i like her style. her evil. have yet to see her in action.

Most probably in season 2. :X

Next....

He's hot! *melts*

awwww...

Warning!
Dont look at his eyes, you will be seduced. LOL.

i like him more than stephen even though he has been the bad guy from the start. ~~~
(fyi, he's 31 this year. D:)

And yeah, i didnt put any stephen pics cos im lazy to look. :X

Alright, just to let you see how he looks like..

Paul wesley, 28. (not as cute-looking as Ian :X)

Sad to say,
i have to stop this craze as i have to sleep~~

(i feel like a bimbo all of a sudden. damn. LOL)

oh well, Good night.

Landy, cant-wait-to-be-bite mode. (i ain't under compulsion. :P)

numbers...

2010-09-30T17:08:00.004+08:00

Its awesome to see how my counter number increases everyday.
Is it because my URL is random-ness?
like ppl search on "random stuffs" cos they're bored and they found my blog.
Cos if im not wrong, the counter i set, was per IP address basis. LOL.
Just curious who reads my blog everyday.
Cos the number jumps everyday.
And even the stats from bloggers is giving me a good mood.
I wonder if the stats is lying. LOL.
Its so frequent.
Alright, enough with the "oh-my, it-so-incredible" feelings.

My body seemed to be drained of energy. Im feeling lethargic even though i just woke up.
And sleep is never enough for me.
Did some sleepbug enter my body? ><~~~!
Maybe i rested too much.
Body becomes lazy.
blah~~

Oh well~~

Landy, puzzled.

Zooooomm~~~~

2010-09-27T20:03:00.002+08:00

1 week past like how F1 zoomed past me yesterday.

The sound F1 racecar produced is really deafening!
I went out to serve drinks and i didnt have time to wear the earplug, the next moment i know was my ear hurts to the point it start to produce an "eeeee~~~" sound.
I was so afraid that i become deaf. I dashed to my manager and said, " can you talk to me? like anithing? cos i wanna see if i can still hear a thing." D:
Overall, The job was tough. 10bucks/hr isnt that nice at all but i have little treats from customers every now and then. (too chio liao..bo bian. LOL)

i couldnt really rmb what i did for the past 1 week, just roughly know from my previous post barh. I couldnt really recall the details.
hmm..let me think..
Oh yeah, i did shows.
I was really mad at how irresponsible someone can get.
I couldnt bring myself to do such a thing thats why i hang on till now.
Well, we have no rights to stop others so just do the best we can.

I had an eventful week and hope this coming week will be a good one too.
A little patience really helps alot. (:
Gonna spend more time at home this week, to accompany my mom. :3

Shall go type email now..

Landy, contented.

Packed...

2010-09-20T20:01:00.004+08:00

Okay, so i spend my monday slacking away.
I had planned to do sth but end up doing other things.
This whole week is gonna be fully packed.
Tmr, i am going to school early morning to do MISC stuffs. haha..
Then to my fren's house to get mooncake. wahaha..Finally.
Excited over this year mid-autumn festival. also dont know why. LOL!
Then home sweet home.
Am gonna pack the house tmr.
So, my Tuesday is packed.

Then Wednesday, Im going back to school(again).
I know, its holiday now..i missed school too much, can? :P
Going back for CCA.
Kinda missed doing shows too.
Its an indoor show, slack siol~~ LOL. :X
Well, its a rehearsal and it is gonna burn my wednesday off.

Followed by thursday~~~
Yeah, you got it. School again!
blah blah blah..
I dont know what's happened cos i haven been through it.
HAHA, is a different feelings blogging about things you gonna do and not things you had done. LOL.

And its friday, saturday and Sunday~~~~
Im going to work!!
Another 3 days burn off..

So this week im literally packed.
Hope my mom dont hate me for that. :X

im telling my whole week schedule for nth. LOL!~
Cos i wouldnt be blogging for the next few days marh...
so must blog now, when im still free. haha.. :P

And after this week, i gonna be very very free again.
Maybe i should really consider working with shaun and nic. haha..
well, shall blog again next week then. (:

Landy, freeatthismoment.

can i say no?

2010-09-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

Why am i so afraid to reject?
Becos ppl will be unhappy about it?
Why do i have to please them?
I dont get it.

Why....
Why am i so unhappy...

argh..

no mood to blog..

Landy, suicidalmode.

2010-09-17T18:01:00.002+08:00

I had been eating non-stop for the past few days.

THANKS pls. i didnt gain much weight.

Lucky i dont need to survive on water only.

I'm getting sick of life all of a sudden.

Lots of bad news, little good ones.

why did i even struggle to survive. damn.

Landy, upset.

me is happy :D

2010-09-16T17:19:00.002+08:00

I been painting my parents room for the past few hours.
Its going to complete!
Waiting for the paint to dry so that can put on the second coat.
My hands is filled with dried paint. ==!
My feet too! :(
But is alright, was quite fun.
Its tiring as well.

Hasn't been sleeping well, wonder how long can i last.
Lastly,

I JUST FOUND OUT ONE FUNCTION OF BLOGGER.
IT'S AWESOME. LOL.
noob me. haha..
Didnt regret using blogger. :P

Awww..there's meeting in the end..==

Landy, excited.

wtf?! :(

2010-09-16T00:11:00.004+08:00

And thats how im feeling right now.
I didnt say i didnt want to help. I just wanna you to do it yourself. I was thinking, you look okay. I supposed you could do it yourself.
Okay, i admit that my tone wasnt very friendly, but hey, im not as patience as you thought i am.
I am a girl with very short fuse (im trying to lengthen it.)
I have been showing the best i could to you but that doesnt mean i could sustain it.
I been hoping for your recovery everyday.
Its not just because i dont wanna see you suffer. Its also because i dont want to see the people around you to suffer.
I know i didnt do much, and precisely because of this. I feel tired even though i didnt do much, what about him?
I know you feel guilty for asking him (no, i dont think you asked him for anithing), rather, he do it willingly. And so, people around you have to be some obedient servant serving you? cmon.
Im trying not to use harsh words here but im reaching my threshold.
I am someone who needs my sleep.
Im easily satisfied. You let me sleep well and feel full, im happy.
Not being able to rest well will cause me to have some sort of mental breakdown.
Im not trying to say that you're not letting me.
Its just, by calling people and tell them that you're not feeling well could do little help to alleviate the situation.
Its disturbing me, seriously.
Im like tensed up please.
ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVING DARK EYE RINGS.
And just because my tone was alittle harsh, you could shove my hands off when i tried to hold you.
Do you know how fucking it hurts me?( not physically, you know)
Do you know everytime i see you in agony, i said in my heart that if i could, i am willing to take over you so that you could feel better.

haiis.

I should understand hw you feel too.
You're the one suffering, not me.
It's naturally that you wish for someone to take care of you.
Though i rant so much, im sorry for the harsh tone that i had used.

Oh well, over with that. ( i wonder how to apologise to her.. ==!)
I wonder who reads my blog.
Can you just tag me when you see this?
Im just curious though, even just a random bloghopper. :P

Oh yeah! Before i forgot, i had a great day today.
We went to watch "Going the Distance".
First M18 movie i watched in cinema.
I think we all looked old. The ticket tearer (or whatever you called it) didnt check our IC. ==
Oh well.
The movie erm erm erm, funny. i laughed alot. haha.
After movie, we went to had buffet, and i ate 3 hours straight! (sinful please. LOL)
Sincerely thankful to (not in order)
Zi chao!
Afiqah!
Shaun!
Tze Kheng!
Nicholas!
<3

I dont think i need any breakfast, lunch or even dinner for tmr. :X
Okay, this post is getting too long.

Pleasedotagyo.

Landy, tired.

Ranting...

2010-09-13T19:18:00.003+08:00

I am bored. ==

To top it up, I am having some weird depressing feeling.
I couldnt really pinpoint what went wrong but i just feel very unhappy.

Maybe it's the break point for my emotions?

Things hasnt been going well for me. Problems come one after the other.

Deep down, i am feeling very weak, very useless.

Sometimes, thoughts of giving up appear but was quickly chased away. (heng arh~~)

As the candles on my birthday cake increase, life do get tougher. It is slowly showing me its' cruelty and practicality. The reality. How the world operates.

Its just a simple task, why do i take so long to complete?

i often ask myself ever since i took on this project.

Sometimes, 1-man show is easier. we could save the co-ordination trouble. lol.

I hope for a stronger me.

Sometimes, i wished to be alone cos true friends are hard to find.
Hyprocrites are everywhere.
Please dont talk to me if you think that i sucks.
Please dont act friendly and give me hopes that you are good when you are not.
Please get out of my life.
Im getting out of this circle soon. Im tired.

I used to think that im capable but i was wrong.
I used to think that im strong but i was wrong.
I used to think that im clever but i was wrong.
I used to think that kind souls are everywhere, (and again) i wasn't quite correct.
I used to think that if i am true to others, i will get back the same treatments. This doesnt apply to everyone.
Life seriously sucks when you think negatively. damn.

oh well, im not shooting anyone in particular. Just general arh~~
At least i think i still have friends around me that will help me out if i were to drown(i dont know how to swim. LOL)
Im actually thinking about someone when im typing the previous sentence. That someone is really good, she makes me feel better after the phonecall with her. She was on the train when i called her. You know who you are. *wink*

lastly, i dislike gossip. blah.
人言可畏啊。请大家积点口德。=X

Landy, stillfeelingsad.

out for the night.

2010-09-11T14:26:00.002+08:00

Yesterday night was cool.
been long time since i last watched a movie in cinema. haha~~~

alittle disappointing as the movie has no link to the previous movie.
suddenly one big guy come out, who the fuck is this guy?!
and the zombie is like lvl-ed up lorh.
The movie focus too much on the 3D effects, i dont like. ==
oh well, its over~ LOL
thn some kind soul drive me back home.

i was thinking, i shouldnt be back there. blah~~~
Just seemed like my fault, is it?

Landy, unsure.

YAY?!

2010-09-09T15:16:00.003+08:00

THE SEM TEST IS OVER FOR ME.

wahahaha..

am i supposed to be happy? i supposed so.

i was happy that it end cos it means no more mugging but what awaits for me is yet another annoying issue.

aniway, i dislike people who dont take their education seriously cos they're wasting their parents money. i find them very very very very immature and insensitive. argh. ==

Landy, confused.

some updates...

2010-09-07T15:04:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS SECOND DAY OF EXAM.

i am having my last paper(NLS) on THURSDAY!
Holy~
This is one paper that i have to score cos i have done not-bad for the whole of sem. At least i scored an "A" for this module's project! :D

For now, i am so gonna relax myself. will start to revise again on wed(which is tmr. LOL).

i wanna go shop yo. i already planned to go shopping long before exam started but haven been free. Now, i dont even know want go out ma. zZz. cos my mom isn't feeling very well, i feel bad if i were to go out. blah.
Hope she get well soon. *pray to tua pek gong* :O

well, back to me. i've been staying at home. awesome. I never like to stay at home but actually staying at home and sleep also not bad. HAHA.

Anyone has any idea when are we getting back our result? (i know i very kiasu, exam haven end asking when result liao..) but i very anxious arh~~
heard that is on 24th sept, is it?

oh my~ suddenly rmb. exam end means is CCA time. damn~ blah blah~~~~~~~

actually im quite unhappy that you said so much about me. Be it unintentionally or intentionally. you hurt me. i will change but with a hidden scar you inflicted onto me. :(

Landy, unhappy.

what's happening?

2010-09-02T20:26:00.002+08:00

*ahem*

So, its the start of sept. Sem test is just a few days time, followed by 6 weeks break. Awesome.
I had planned not to waste such a long holiday lazing at home so i started looking for part time jobS. First, i send lots of resumes out to jobs of my liking and also within my capabilities. Then i realised, actually part time jobs dont need resume one. haha. Cos people wouldnt want to hire you if you're just working for such a short period of time. So i stopped sending.

On the other hand, i was expecting myself to get into the TIP that i signed on before school close for YOG breaks. And OH! "Due to overwhelming number of applicants, we like to inform you that you have not been successful in your application."
*instantaneous :( appear on my face*
i started "@&#(^@$!%^@#%" non-stop then my sis came to me and said, "things dont always go as what you planned." So i stopped my ranting and i tot maybe i can go look for another job thn.

This is when someone called and asked me that am i interested and can i go down for a job interview. *happy*
I went all the way down to bugis to find out that it MLM. ==
Nvm, then a msg came in saying that i was shortlisted for a job interview. *HAPPY ONCE AGAIN*
This time is real.LOL. Its at international plaza. So i went down for interview, everything was smooth until today. They send me a msg saying that they cant give me the job. zZz.

So my hope is like smashed once and again.
I am not gonna give up yo. I really dont wanna waste my holiday just like zZz... ==
I was thinking maybe i fan tai sui. LOL!
Have to go pray. hahahaha.

Oh well....

Landy, moody.

tough luck

2010-08-19T14:10:00.002+08:00

seriously bad mood.

PISSED

2010-08-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

IM SO UPSET NOW...NOOO

I WANNA GET INTO TIP DE...WHY OTHERS HAVE I DONT HAVE? HOW CAN LIKE THAT.
EVERYTIME LIKE THAT DE LEH..ARGH

I DONT WANT MY SEPT TO BE ROTTING AWAY.
I DONT WANNA ROT MY HOLIDAYS AWAY. NOOOO...
WTH.
MY AUGUST WAS SO GOOD. I CANT IMAGINE MY HOLIDAY TO BE TOO FREE.
I DONT LIKE... :(

SUA. MY AUGUST IS STILL GOOD. BLAH.
ITS WELL-PLANNED COS IS PLANNED BY ME!
STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!

HOW CAN LIKE THAT. TMD.

DAMN PISSED.

LANDY, ANGRY.

Oh yeah..

2010-08-11T02:48:00.002+08:00

"OH yeah oh yeah oh yeah..."

Heard this song numerous times today in TP.

and heyy, i know, im back after stopped blogging for so long.

is anyone still reading my dead blog?

The last time i blogged was 1 mth ago. D:

aha.

anyway, lots happened and here i am, still alive and kicking.

i realised sth from the past 1 mth.

i complain ALOT.

and is damn lot.

i can just talk to someone for hours and the content is all ranting.

cool eh? i have to slowly withdraw from this ranting, to save the ears of my dear frens. :X

the song "oh yeah" is kinda stucked in my brain. rawr~~~ gonna replace with another song. haha.

alejandro maybe. not a very good song to be addicted to. haha. well, free thinker, who cares?

Its like going 3am. my brain is really tired. i think my body is tired too, from all the running, dancing, hopping and waiting earlier on, just that i really wanna blog again. i tot of blogging first before i do my work. Apparently my mind disagree with mi and i had to do finish all my long-delayed work before i could blog. This explains why im blogging at 3am in the midnight.

haha. im happy cos i had completed lots of things. All the work which is supposed to be completed, as of friday, but i dragged till just now thn finished.

i have a project meeting followed by consultation later on. That's not all, im going to work after the project consultation. Basically im packed for the week which is good cos i wun be wasting my time. :D i get to earn some cash during my free time. haha.

i going to use whenever free day(s) i have from the following week to start on my revision(s).

wahaha, i planned my holiday so well. i like this holiday. LOL. im not bored. :D

i kinda managed to fill up my sep-oct holiday. i will see how aug holidays goes.

i hope to get into the TIP. haha.

Landy, tired.

im back

2010-07-11T23:41:00.004+08:00

without much notice, i stopped blogging for 1 week plus.

Lots of things happened, from unhappy to elated, from couldn't take it to don't want care much, from troubled to relieve.

Things are getting better in my opinion, not much of a worry.

i do not need to worry much in term of schoolwork right now. i will say it is manageable.

im more worried for something else, something i had been taking it for granted, that is very precious to me. i hope i could at least help, regardless how small that effort is, i wanna help.

i shouldn't give up so easily, giving up is not the first option to my every problems.

Landy, ==

Judge

2010-07-03T12:23:00.006+08:00

Have you ever form an opinion or decide upon critically toward someone?
If yes,
Are you aware that you had judged that someone?

Some people i know always say they dont judge, how often is this true?
Is it possible to not form an opinion when you see that certain person doing certain action?
Sterotyping, Prejudices, might just be formed within seconds.
This cause and effect cycle continues to repeat viciously, to the point of no return.

Recently, blog-hopping to certain people's blog reminded me -human ain't perfect.
They said bad things about others, usually not direct. what are they expecting?
That people will read?
Oh well, for me, i expect ppl to read(though i like typing to air alot.)
i still want people to know.
i not sure if they're able to understand me, at the very least, i said out my tots.
To those who are concerned, they are able to get this segment of my mind from this space.

This is kind of a first time..that i form such a great impression on a certain person.
I wonder when did we drift apart, what'll happened if we didnt drift?
i appreciated this experience, not a great fall, just pain enough to wake myself up.
To realised human ain't as good.
This doesnt mean i gonna harm ppl. =.=
Just, to prepare myself for more of such acquaintance.
I dont want my heart to be guarded by cement wall, or my heart to become cement. LOL!

Landy, lethargy

cough

2010-06-28T13:07:00.003+08:00

oh my, unknowingly ignored my blog for days.
bad bad girl.
what have i been doing for the past few days?
aha, nothing much.

little people asked me why i locked my blog.
oh well, so i see no need to lock it animore?
just read lorh. nothing much here also.
just a random girl ranting. :D

currently at comp lab.
waiting for myself to get sleepy.
HAHA. of cos not, though im getting a little hyperglycemia here.
shall get on to my work after this post.

Projects is disliked.
groupwork is not for me. :(
but i have to deal with it somehow.

poly life should be fun and enjoyable. :D

Landy, off

brrr....

2010-06-25T12:19:00.004+08:00

i dislike rain.
For rain bring hassle to people.
It let ppl feel cold and shiver.

i like rain.
For it is a crucial to the plants surrounding us.
It allows them to grow strong and healthy.

i dont like that coldness. :(
i wanna hide under blanket and sleeeeeeeeeep.

i should avoid going to that certain blog when im blog-hopping, though reading how failed that blogger is makes me happy. i should stop this saddistic action. :P
If there is really god, can i pray for a better society with less think-they-are-very-good people on this earth? ==
send them to other unknown planet if possible. (:

Oops, that's selfish of me. who cares? :P

Landy, off

CARELESS GIRL

2010-06-24T19:13:00.002+08:00

AND HOW MANY TIMES MUST IT HAPPENED FOR ME TO LEARN?
i
lost
my
thumb
drive
again!
ITS THE FREAKING FIFTH TIME.
wakao!

seriously siol.

aniway, have backup at others thumb drive. LOL.
shall carry on with my work.

landy, stupid.

self-motivation?

2010-06-24T12:34:00.004+08:00

Hey Hey! i need to start exercising. my stamina is -weak.
i ran up the slope early this morning and im panting quite heavily. thats bad. D:
Have to come up with plan.
MEAL PLANNING! applying what i learn. wahahaha.
and not forgetttting theeeee EXERCISES. HAHA.

oh my, im soooooo happy for some stupid reason. im really some saddist. DOTS!
im laughing at other's unhappiness. HAHA. bad girl.
if he still cant see the fault that he has, he shall destined to be a failure. (:

oh well, i have to constantly remind myself alot things. seemed like my memory space is getting smaller. :(
have to slp more..LOL!

Landy, high

He's hot

2010-06-20T15:53:00.000+08:00

hey, wait..

2010-06-17T11:02:00.002+08:00

Its Thursday?

SO FAST?

oh my, i didn't even enjoy the holiday. :(

what i meant by enjoy is to sleep enough. i dont feel like i rested enough rawr. Nooo..

new term starting means the getting back of term test papers. haiis. heard that our class didn't do very well. blah.

tmr is the selection. gonna ask mabel for some advice. LOL. hope she's free. haha. :X

Oh yarh! can check the webbie for more details. haha. shall do it ltr.

Landy, Bon courage. (:

Love me

2010-06-15T19:47:00.001+08:00

muahahaha...

2010-06-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

i want a death note. *evil laughter*

oh my..

2010-06-15T00:05:00.002+08:00

The similar experience occur again.

People, we are born with a brain to think, use it.

and here it goes.

2010-06-13T23:13:00.003+08:00

well, camp just over. i will say i didnt do a fantastic job as of my position.
i will not use "becos is my first time" as my excuse. i will rather say, please give mi more chance to let me learn. i must admit i did a sucky job as an assistant camp comm. i didnt know the program flow as well as others. i didnt know how to answer alot qns being thrown at me throughout the entire planning. the things i did wasnt as great either. i know i dont deserve any clapping and praising, this doesnt mean you can directly shoot me without giving me any respect. imagine this happened to you. i have actually let it pass, and u raise it up again. please, think before you talk.

Please dont say things like " im not pinpointing any ppl" cos the things you typed is as plain as it is - to shoot a particular ppl. from what i see, the thing said are just excuses. i know im not good, i will kindly step down if u were to voice it out, if not, please dont shoot ppl behind their back. we are all still learning, is not like you are perfect.

im trying very hard not to give up and i hope i will not, all this are just talks.

Landy, vexed

let go

2010-06-03T10:46:00.005+08:00

It's not a bad option afterall.
On the other hand, hanging on, trying hard to achieve the seemingly tough result so as to prove that "i am capable" to others might suit my competitive character. It's a tough road to walk on. Right now, i have no confident in walking this path, i might die walking through it. Obviously, after this walk, i might become a "more capable" person. But the loneliness i get from there is seemingly increasing. i have no desire to stay on.
Does giving up right now means i am a loser?
i admit that i am a failure in handling stress, from past till now. It's a lucky thing that i didnt go crazy due to stress(maybe i'm on my way to it).
Is it right to say that i should not give myself extra stress and concentrate on what i'm supposed to do? The role as student - to study and score well.
Entering the month of june, i been on this position for at least 2 mths. It's not the peak season, we aint really that busy. Still, i realised i wasn't of much help to the commitee. i asked lots of questions. i dont know what to do. i felt lost. i didnt do anything. why am i here for? what is my role in this corporate? To shoulder the responsibility as a QuarterMaster? This role ain't giving me any happiness. what for hang on to create more unhappiness to myself? i believe i'll be fine surviving without it.

Maybe afterall, i do have an answer to every of my little questions that is written (or not written) here. I'm going to dump my responsibility to others. im leaving. well, a loser afterall.

The recent event shall be my last event in this corporate.
It might be a good thing afterall, having 1 less incapable ppl.
i'm mentally drained, and no one will be able to persuade me.
This year is not a good year at all.
There's more to settle, and it will be settle soon.
Hope the new term will not be a lonely one.

Landy, tired.

returned.

2010-06-02T22:11:00.004+08:00

*ah choo* *ah choo* :+(

Waah, this blog so dusty. *sweep *sweep*
haha. okay, this is retarded.
actually i been coming back to my blog during this period of time, and didnt expect myself to really not blog for so many days. Well, blogging does take up some times. i saved that "some time" of mine. haha. hmm, is there still people who will read this blog? (do tag if you're still reading, cos i'm curious. :P)

haha, i am still in the midst of term test. It is really halfway through, just took 2nd paper of the week. i didnt do well according to the comparison by other. haha. i'm really sad. i couldn't focus well with those distraction of phone ringing and all. no matter how much i dislike, i couldnt change the fact that i need to sit for that test. tmr is another test, i will say i only studied halfway. i went to slp straight away after i got home. what a wonderful move.

i dont feel very alert even though i had just slpt for 2 hours. my body is so greedy for sleep. well, talking so much about tests earlier on, lets talk about sth else. i wonder, is this the right place for me to type all this out? i seriously feel weird locking the blog. hmm..shall give some tots to it. haha.

so much talking about how i wanna change, i dont seemed to be changing. the duty assigned to me seemed to have stay stagnant. so much of how i wanna prove to other, i did nth much. Maybe from the very start, i shouldnt have gone for the interview. i shouldnt have take on this position. its ain't making me any stronger. it's making me feel weak. i dont see the need to do all these, i dont wanna do all these.

aside from that, i am pretty caught up by my indecisiveness and playfulness. i could have achieve alot more if i could made some decision more swiftly. that goes back to me having to change.

Changes, it's so hard to make it.

i find myself talking quite incoherently.
i shall stop and settle my thinking before i decides to blog again.

till then.

woke up.

2010-05-21T13:25:00.003+08:00

i dont feel like blogging animore. not for this few weeks.
no time, no motivation, no energy, no idea.

dont bother coming to my blog peeps. (:

i wanna change. its gonna be a drastic change, i supposed.
To be more disciplined,
more efficient.
more decisive.
more like a leader.
i wanna find back my past, change my present to become my future. (:
i beginning to dislike the present me, when did i become like this?

last post till june.
take care peeps.

Landy, realised.

Learning Time Management Skills

2010-05-18T20:12:00.004+08:00

In the end, time management comes down to choices. Good choices lead to better results, while poor choices lead to wasted time and energy.

The good news is that time management skills can be learned and mastered by anyone. All it takes is practice and dedication.

Like any other skill, you can learn time management the easy way or you can learn it the hard way.

The hard way usually involves years of trial and error and lots of false starts trying to figure out what works and what doesn't.

If you'd like to save yourself some time, money and effort, I recommend you try the easy way: learn from someone who has already done it.(me :p)

Makes sense, right?

15 Time Management Tips
In the meantime, here are 15 practical time management tips to help you get started...

1. Write things down

A common time management mistake is to try to use your memory to keep track of too many details leading to information overload. Using a to-do list to write things down is a great way to take control of your projects and tasks and keep yourself organized.

2. Prioritize your list

Prioritizing your to-do list helps you focus and spend more of your time on the things that really matter to you. Rate your tasks into categories using the ABCD prioritization system described in the time management course.

3. Plan your week

Spend some time at the beginning of each week to plan your schedule. Taking the extra time to do this will help increase your productivity and balance your important long-term projects with your more urgent tasks. All you need is fifteen to thirty minutes each week for your planning session.

4. Carry a notebook

You never know when you are going to have a great idea or brilliant insight. Carry a small notebook with you wherever you go so you can capture your thoughts. If you wait too long to write them down you could forget. Another option is to use a digital recorder.

5. Learn to say no

Many people become overloaded with too much work because they overcommit; they say yes when they really should be saying no. Learn to say no to low priority requests and you will free up time to spend on things that are more important.

6. Think before acting

How many times have you said yes to something you later regretted? Before committing to a new task, stop to think about it before you give your answer. This will prevent you from taking on too much work.

7. Continuously improve yourself

Make time in your schedule to learn new things and develop your natural talents and abilities. For example, you could take a class, attend a training program, or read a book. Continuously improving your knowledge and skills increases your marketability, can help boost your career, and is the most reliable path to financial independence.

8. Think about what you are giving up to do your regular activities

It is a good idea to evaluate regularly how you are spending your time. In some cases, the best thing you can do is to stop doing an activity that is no longer serving you so you can spend the time doing something more valuable. Consider what you are giving up in order to maintain your current activities.

9. Use a time management system

Using a time management system can help you keep track of everything that you need to do, organize and prioritize your work, and develop sound plans to complete it. An integrated system is like glue that holds all the best time management practices together.

10. Identify bad habits

Make a list of bad habits that are stealing your time, sabotaging your goals, and blocking your success. After you do, work on them one at a time and systematically eliminate them from your life. Remember that the easiest way to eliminate a bad habit, it to replace it with a better habit.

11. Don’t do other people’s work

Are you in the habit of doing other people’s work because or a ‘hero’ mentality? Doing this takes up time that you may not have. Instead, focus on your own projects and goals, learn to delegate effectively, and teach others how to do their own work.

12. Keep a goal journal

Schedule time to set and evaluate your goals. Start a journal and write down your progress for each goal. Go through your goal journal each week to make sure you are on the right track.

Keeping a journal on your computer has never been easier!

13. Don’t be a perfectionist

Some tasks don’t require your best effort. Sending a short email to a colleague, for example, shouldn’t take any more than a few minutes. Learn to distinguish between tasks that deserve to be done excellently and tasks that just need to be done.

14. Beware of “filler” tasks

When you have a to-do list filled with important tasks, be careful not to get distracted by “filler” tasks. Things such as organizing your bookcase or filing papers can wait until you tackle the items that have the highest priority.

15. Avoid “efficiency traps”

Being efficient doesn’t necessarily mean that you are being productive. Avoid taking on tasks that you can do with efficiency that don’t need to be done at all. Just because you are busy and getting things done doesn’t mean you are actually accomplishing anything significant

Source From: http://www.timethoughts.com/time-management.htm

Shin-Sama

Narcissism

2010-05-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

i looked at the mirror, and find myself quite pretty. HAHA.
oh my. im falling in love with myself. what the dots.

Pimple pimple go away, never come back again. :D

this is uber short post. and i gonna lock my blog. HAHAHA...

not locking. blah.

landy, high.

Poor me

2010-05-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

i think my post is getting wordy as it progress. haha.
not gonna change my style of blogging. dots..

and why did i said poor me? cos my shoulder is aching like siao. :(
headache come back to disturb me.
i have lots work to complete!
this is awesome irritating.

i want eat muaji! i gonna get it tmr! buahahahaha... ;p

i think i going insane by the rate i doing my work.
oh man. this cant go on. i said i gonna buck up, didnt i?
blah.

a short post. haha.

Landy, tired.

What i truely is

2010-05-12T16:18:00.003+08:00

woah, NLS lab is fast.
Time used : 1 hr 5min.
Duration of lab 3 hrs.
What does this imply?
i have time to blog. :D

like what i had said in the previous few posts, i had been busy. i was so busy that i neglected alot of things, including ppl. This few days, i finally free to do the things i long wanted to do, such as packing my table. HAHA.
And is becos i am so free, my mind is running wild from thinking. i settled down to think, and the train of tots scare me.
maybe i should not have been so frenly from the start. i should have continue my years of loneliness. i have always been doing things alone. why must i change? do i really desire the company of frens? well, been drifting away from frens whom i have been close with. it happens everytime. so why am i feeling so sad, when i am supposed to be used to it? i let down my guard, i forgot to protect myself. and im hurt again. this time wasnt as hurtful as previous few times. maybe becos the cycles repeated itself too much, i felt numbed. And now, i dont even know should i type it down, my words are incoherent now. i dont know what i am typing. but i just wanna type.
i think communication between ppl is important. i lack of that. i wish my communication skill were much stronger. well, that doesnt change my thinking of human being ugly, not all, just some. why do i always going through all this? am i having some mental disorder? is it becos i have poor control over my emotion? why do i feel down so easily? why am i so weak? why? i guess what i needed most is a listening ear and a caring heart.
i dont wanna look tired.
i dont wanna look stressed.
i dont wanna be stressed either!
i dislike this phrase of life, i wanna get out of this.
who can i turn to?
im not close to any of my family to say the fact.
im not close to any fren whom i can pour my heart out.
im not close to anyone.
i am alone.
sometimes, my mind just contradicts itself so much, i want this yet i want that. its screwing me. i cant stop it. i wanna suicide yet i dont wanna die. i dont like all this cos it torturing me,but i need all this, it train me.
its been long time since i really complain. i like to vent things out. i like to just voice it out. ppl around me dont like. :(
i changed. i am like a nth in anywhere.
only i cant do without myself. haha. obvious.
well, i am really thinking alot, aint i?
and i shall continue with my report. i dont wanna think anymore.
in the end, i have myself. (:

Tzyy Wei, Out.

wanted but cant...

2010-05-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

haha, i wanna to blog but its late. is 11.07 pm right now. i going offline soon so i will just forget abt blogging and go offline. haha. this is seriously retard cos i login wanting to blog yet i didnt managed too. if i were to blog seriously, it will take at least 15 minutes, i dont have that time. so sorry. so yeah, im writing chunks of craps. i didnt expect you to continue reading so you can stop now. yeah and so, imma going to offline and yeah! you still reading, how cute can you be? haha. and time now is 11.11pm. so i blogged for 4 minutes ++++ and i shall not continue and go offline. thanks for reading this chunk of i-dont-know-what-i-am-typing post. (:

Tzyy Wei, Insane.

school day

2010-05-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

After so long, i finally feel that i am actually studying. Just that, by the end of the day, i am exhausted.
It is only when i start to have quizzes, thn i start studying. laughs.
The feelings is very different. i used to be very tensed whenever there is tests or quizzes. As years goes back, i getting less excited. It is as though the motivation to work hard, to be top, is gone.

i had not given up on myself, will never allow that to happen.

Tzyy Wei, tired.

2010-05-08T14:40:00.005+08:00

Chain of thoughts running through my mind.

i will very much want to blog it out, confined by my poor command of english, i afraid cant.

My FPQA groupmates are going to complete the project report by today. i am not there. what did i do for this project? i think nothing. i have not been around to do even my part to this project. Initially was because i was away to help my CCA and when i came back, i do not have the slightest idea of what's going on. i tried to catch back. i managed to in the end. And then, i do not have the energy to continue. i drained myself too much. i know if i were to go for today meeting( although is the final), i will faint, for real.

Over the years, my time management skill did not really improve. what a joke. It has been bad, now it kind of worsen, i think. i hate to say, but is due to my untrained self-discipline and indecisive-ness. i could have just go when i supposed to and not hesitate if i should. i could have just left and not stayed cos i wanna have fun. i could have...but i didnt. Time is over-spend here.

(my chain of tot are distracted.)

Its going to be the 4th weeks since school reopen. i would say it had been hectic. i didnt have time to sort my thinking, my feelings, my everything. The last 4 weeks were like wind. i couldn't remember what i really did for the past few weeks. i may be able to if i think harder. I hope i will be more conscious at the start of 4th week, with lesser things bugging me. i will need to prioritize. i hope i have the time, no, i will have the time. (:

Holiday mood are gone by now. Time for schoolwork. :D

xoxo.

2010-05-03T23:50:00.005+08:00

i am biting my nails.
i bite my nails when im nervous or stressed or thinking about sth.
and when i bite my nails, it becomes ugly.
i have to cut my nails cos its ugly. :(

Today was awesome. (though i kept biting my nails)
spend my evening with a very adorable girl.
we chatted and laughed and chatted and laughed till 8pm before we leave the meeting room.
We both agreed that we are lagging behind our studies. HAHA.
Opps.
i seriously need to buck up on my studies.
Its already week 3!
week 7 is term test yo!

Have a nice chat with this girl girl. ( wondering if u read my blog.. :x )
Haha, and yeah, was thinking abt what i am supposed to do.
i kept forgetting what i wanna do. -.-

Everyone is telling me, they went to watch movie.
i wanna watch too. :(
Rawr.

okay, im tired. i should slp soon.

I want the memory bread from Doreamon. :(

Tzyy Wei, off.

what a day...

2010-04-29T19:29:00.002+08:00

okayokay, i shall stop with those SML since it doesnt really sound very right to most ppl.

feels great to be at home early.
been going home early this two days. *happy*

well, my day wasnt very nice today. i will say worse then yesterday.
firstly, i wear some outit that is totally like a factory worker. this is still okay cos is my fault for mis-matching it. i cant blame mabel for she just said, she didnt insist. i too obedient go listen. dumb me. -.-

Then, with that outfit, i made a presentation. during CSAS 3 workshop, the instructor wanted our group to choose a "spokeperson" to present. Everyone just said my name in unison. -.- i was feeling super uneasy cos of that outfit and i tio sabo to present. >nevermind, can train presentation skill. After that, we went to itas to eat. the food sucks seriously. the chicken chop like overcook. my hair has the smell of itas after that. oh well, can wash.

At this point of time, my limit is almost reaching. Feeling tired and unwell, i looked like a emo-tard during the whole of my FI tut. at the end of lesson, im supposed to hand in my FI tut 1, i actually forgotten to hand in my reference!! rawr. lucky after that i have FI lab.
And...this is when my limit is reached.
i bought the wrong labcoat for lab session and i had to wear like a fish monger. HUAI ARH.
no words can really describe my feelings. i not exactly unhappy, i was amused.
Amused by my "eventful" thursday.

i hope my friday will be a better one.
haha.

its time for some random crapping since i have the time. ;p
do you know what Jealousy means? It is mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry.
what about disappointed? it is the feeling when you fail to fulfill the expectations or wishes.

why am i saying all this? cos it random marh.

oh well, i should try to talk lesser since i think words coming out from my mouth ain't very smooth to the ear. or anione can tell me they enjoy talking to me, seriously? haha.

*change all my haha to haiis barh. thats my real tots.

xoxo.

SML.

2010-04-28T23:51:00.002+08:00

This shall be my quote for this period of time.
At least it makes me laugh when i think of it.
FML is the quote for another awesome girl. ;p

our life recently is screwed.
problems arise one after the other.
i am glad that it was settled at the end.

now my body is screwing me up.
i cant focus well cos the pain is annoying me.
It is not pain enough to kill you yet it is just there to disturb you. haha.

even my thumbdrive is playing with me. It denied me from opening the file. how awesome.

i think i can easily kpkb anione that offends me. well, be more ladylike, i try not to. (:

This 2 weeks has been hectic. i will not say hate it but dont really like it either. i hope, after next week, i will have more time to work on my study. since my organiser is not filled up( and i hope it will not be). wahahha.
and yeah, my brain aint functioning very well now.

shall continue next time.
xoxo.

2010-04-25T21:28:00.002+08:00

hmm, im having some hormones being very naughty, its causing me to be in a bad mood. :(
anione free to cheer mi up?
anibody out there?
awww...
seemed like no one.
everyone is oh-so-busy.

haha, im supposed to be busy too, busy with my assignment, but im lost. i dont know how to continue. :( shall get on with it ltr. gonna pass up by thurday. dont seemed to have much time left with mon to wed night all gone le. :(

AHHH! sian. i didnt reject...why...haiis. forget it.

i need a good time management.
i need to be more cruel. haha. what a sentence.

i am tired. anione noticed? (:

TGIF?

2010-04-23T19:49:00.003+08:00

im seriously bored by FB. i cant even stay in that web for 5 mins.

i have yet done my assignment. Its only week 1. oh my. just becos we are year 2?! ><~!
lots of catching up to do cos missed too many lectures and tuts. haha.

im craving for ice cream, desserts, potato chip!
cos im feeling down? HAHA.

i dont care whether the world is gonna ignore me, cos i live for myself and not for others. :D

is so pc.

2010-04-21T16:24:00.003+08:00

currently using computer in school library.
Just had my lunch, very full. haha.

do i sound happy? i hope so.
im really very sleepy right now and i cant really smile.
everyone around me just kept telling me to chill.
i know i appeared very tensed and nervous.
i know i somehow is too.
Rather than telling me to chill, can you lighten my burden? i will gladly appreciate.
maybe it seemed like i like to put every blame on myself that is becos i believe that i do play a part in every fault that my crew made today.
i will like to say sorry to my crew today that i didnt give my instructions very well.
my show etiquette weren't good. :(
i will reflect on it and hopefully i can rmb it.
and am sorry that i flared at someone today when he is just being nice to offer his help.
haiis.

i do understand that i have a rather black face when i am doing show cos i really dont want anithing to screw, cos everytime i loosen up, there will be problems popping up. i dont like this feelings, so i rather stay alert and look fierce throughout.

i dont think i will be taking anymore show after CCA recruitment drive, i dont mind having the lowest show count record or whatsoever, i need to take a step back before i lose myself.

so after CCA recruitment drive, i have introductory Workshop to deal with, i dont think that's much of a problem. Then, i have DreamIII meetings, followed by crew interviews and then PCOC. this will be the few events that will be bugging me, and no more. i will hope the subcomm will take up more shows. haha. if not i think not only me, the other main comm will become super cui. haha. :X

( why did i went for the main comm interview in the first place? -.- )

OH YARH, and also the PC shirt, oh my larh, are your so despo for ur shirt not. kept bugging me. i will give larh, want me give your the key so that your can "rape" the cupboard? zZz.
oh well, have to settle this by this week. haha. ^&%#$%!@#&^@*@

thats all, bye. :)

oh well..

2010-04-20T10:38:00.002+08:00

Everyday seemed to be full of challenges for me ever since the last post.
i will avoid using the word "trouble(s)" as it does sound negative to me.
i will treat it as a training, as well as preparation, for me to enter the society.
i believe i will meet problems that are much tougher than all this.

funny as it is, im actually talking to blogger. i cant really vent it out on people, you see. i wonder if is just me thinking too much, i do realised i am more conscious about how i behave when i with others and react towards people.

In the past, i am like some crazy girl dashing around, chasing guy as though they owed me millions. Now, i try not to do such chasing or rather, is lazy to do so. is this considered a change? become lazier perhaps. haha.

i really do hope that i can do well in this position given to me even though it has never crossed my mind that i will ever become one for tzyy wei is not familiar with the equipments . This is precisely the problem, being QM yet she is not able to repair, not familiar with equipments, not sure what's in the comp room. All she ever know is to pack it. Its little wonder that she does not have the respect from the senior who is, of course, experienced and more worthy of this post.
(oh, i suddenly become third person, awesome. haha. well, heck.)

oh my, i got distracted and played audition halfway through blogging, shall continue nxt time. :X

more thoughts are running in my mind. HAHA.

which path?

2010-04-16T21:38:00.001+08:00

2010-04-10T20:58:00.004+08:00

woah, i went to the west side of singapore today!

took 66 for 2 and a half hour to reach bukit batok.
walked abit to west mall.

Inside the mall, is actually nothing much different from the other shopping mall. hahaha!~

oh well, my mood is like fucked up again larh.

i very sleepy now lorh, thn my bro come talk to me.
He is talking in some weird language that i couldnt seemed to understand.
i dont want macbook larh, fucking stop asking me whether i want not.
I DONT WANT.
The most i dont use comp only, wun die de. -_-

aniway, i think my thumbdrive really dying.
not sure is it virus, just cant really be used.
quite fed up whenever i tried to deal with my thumbdrive.
beloved told me to buy a new one. blah.

i really tired myself out. i kept getting headache recently and this caused my mood to be super bad.
i could easily flare at anione now.
so please dont try to provoke me.
i hope things will be more or less settled.
i left with less than 1 week to rest. i seriously need a rest.

maybe it just me, i tend to panic easily?
am i really up to this job?
just take over less than a month, i feel drained.
how cool can that be.
maybe i have yet used to it?

my tots seemed to be jumping all around again.

when im tired, it leads to bad mood easily. this sucks. :(

and it suck even more to find out the truth. well, it doesnt really matter actually.

ahhh, my heart feels heavy...
self-given stress are seriously redundant yet i cant get it off.

help.. :(

2010-04-10T01:03:00.002+08:00

rawr!

My internet connection have serious problem!!
blah.

i wanna blog alot but...i dont really have ani idea of what to blog about.
laughs.

i have numerous mosquito bites on my body. ;(

waaaah. very distracted. zzz

will blog soon.