I, Landy, born in Singapore under the sign of Cancer, 22 this year, Temasek Polytechnic alumni, bread lover, decided that I'm so cool and you're just jealous. xoxo, whatever.

-Nah, it's gone. Dont be sad.

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hurhur..


The thought of it excites me..




lOl.

wakakaka.
finally.
here it come.

THE BATTLE FINALLY BEGINS!
well, prac is just tmr but more papers will continue to come aft that.
it gonna be a month-long battle.
i gonna do my very best.

just now i dream of sth very scary.
omg larh.
diao~ shall forget abt it.
nightmare b4 "O" prac. LOL.

hope ltr when i slp i will get a SWEET DREAM.

thats all.

oh gosh. i lost my momentum..
sian.
lets see.

11 days more to "O" lvl practical.
15 days more to "O" lvl written papers.

seem like there is still time but actually not. hurhur.
my maths is still in a mess.
i have no mood to study.
didnt went to sch on fri.
found out that mrs J taught titration.
wth.
i missed it.
i have to read on my own.
nvm.
having bad mood recently.
dont knw whats up to my brain.
confused mind.
no. more to a blank one.
not interested in many things.
which makes mi feel scared.
scared from the feeling i had last time.
suicide.
thats a scary thing to me.
cos i dont knw when i will just slash myself once again.
yarh. again. i slashed myself b4.
that was few years ago. when im curious and...moody?
wasnt a deep cut.

situation is different now.
im more mature than last time.
but somehow i cant control my body, i do things b4 i could react.
i shouted b4 i could stop myself.
my mind kinda rusty, not being able to function normally.
issit becos im stressed?

now,
i just let time past back without making it meaningful.
just as i said earlier, "O" lvl is just round the corner. almost everyone i knw is studying like they never had b4.
i had a target to meet, but im just daydreaming.

i had a few questions in mind.
i tink thats why im acting weird.
1stly - why do we need to study?
i tink is becos we can be more clever? cos when we study we use our brain and our brain wun go rusty?
so 2nd qns - study can bring us jobs? thn what job should i take?
thats the qns i cant ans myself.
what job should i take aft my education?
i know i am tinking too far.
but i cant shake this qns off.
i once tot of being a teacher.
this tot stays with mi for abt few years.
then i tot of becoming a scientist cos i like science.
but after that i tot of becoming a nutritionist.
cos it sound interesting to mi.
thn i had a tot that it is hard to be a nutritionist.
so now im blank.
i wanna fill up this qns so that i wun feel so weird.
i tot of becoming a policewoman.
this tot had stayed with mi for several years too.
just that teacher was my first choice back then.

okay. this is bad. cos i cant continue study without knowing what is my future.
what am i aiming for?
omg.
i dont know.
help. im worried that after my education, i couldnt get a good job and support myself and my family.
this is bad cos it makes mi sound useless.
i dont wanna be useless.

im sad now.
audition to mi is useless now.
is just a game whereby i can win ppl.
i can find joy, but not as much as last time.
i wonder why.

but audition is addictive to mi, for no reasons.
mayb becos im too bored.

oh yarh. see.
im blogging, this means im not studying.
haha. which will result in failing (which everyone says)

once again, i dont like this world.
i beginning to like this world few mths ago.
does that mean im back to square one?
LOL.

cmon landy, u can do it.
i gonna tell myself this everyday. haha.
until "O" lvl ends? hur.

thats all. bye.


i drew it yesterday, cos i was bored. =)