I am always saying things that i want, in its opposite meaning. Hoping that people will understand.

All these is the "me" years ago, and the "me" now.

Perhaps, i have changed.

But i still feel sad when people cant get how i am thinking when i gave clues, hoping that they will find out and they don't.

Tonight, i am feeling lonely. It is those kind that will pull your mood down to the rock bottom. I think i will take quite a while to climb back up, alone.

i think i wanna blog, but i not sure what i wanna blog. HAHA.

Aimless blogging.

i clicked login without typing password just now, and the email was another acct. #epic

I shall talk about my internship. Okay, its taking my life away - it's my life for the past nearly-four-months. -.-

My internship is ending in...TWO more days. confusing fuuuuling. I want the money money money~ though it's just that pathetic few hundreds but working isn't as difficult as i thought it would be. Im getting money to enjoy yo. LOL! The moment i think about me having nearly zero income after my internship, my mood go down down dowwwn. -.-

I NEED a JOB, part-time though. haha.

I must also talk about my last week of SIP, even though it is yet to end. Im tasked with never-ending assignments. I think they are a bunch of badly-abused employee. -.- Im like the tiny beam of lights that brightens their day by that little bit. They cannot finish de all dump to me only. Oh, Im a dumping ground too. -.- Dump to me and it will be cleared. =.=


Ultimate sian-ness please. I left with TWO more DAYS! I have ...let me think... another power point to do? one big pile of documents to be filed? and the misc that i wanna do very much? oh oh, not forgetting the ever-so-last-minute tasks that they love to give. I wonder when can i pass back whatever i did to the respective owner, they are always busy. Passing THEIR things BACK to THEM is DISTURBING them. holy.







I have sudden thought about my breakfast tmr. since you are reading, might as well type here. I gonna eat da po luo bao when i woke up and have BIG BREAKFAST when i reach clementi. GOOD IDEA YEAH?! :D









Okay, its going 12 and i need my beauty (and revitalising) sleep desperately. LOL.








ME WANT HOLIDAY. =.=













Landy, random-like-a-hamster

How have you been? doing well?

haha, what a corny way to start my post. Just how long have i not blog in my own personal blog? i have been blogging all this while, just not in this blog. this is so sickening cos the blog post i did was just for the sake of posting. What a blog meant to me is about posting things i WANT to post and not what i HAVE to post. You know, it's more like a want than a need.

wait, i need my spec. cant type properly.

*away from keyboard....*

Okay! got my spec. haha.

So what have i been doing and why do i wanna blog again after so long? or rather, why have i not been blogging? Crazy. Reason simple - i didn't feel like blogging and when i wanna blog, i dont have the time. This suck isn't it? And i finally have the time and mood to blog today! *clap hand* (lameshit =.=)

And so, i have been on internship for 3 months. Seriously, i think this 3 months really gave me a great insight of what working life is. working life = suck ttm. Every morning, i have to wake up by 7am and i will still be late if i leave my hse at 8am. (im supposed to leave my hse by 7.30am btw but i always drag. HAHA.) i find myself leading a very no-life lifestyle for the past 3 months. it has been internship, online modules and boyfren. Im getting kinda sick of it. i meant, let's see what i have been doing for the past 3 mths.

Monday

8 am to 6pm - work(internship)

6 to 7.45pm - Travelling home (YES, i need about 1 and half hour to get home!)

7.45 to 8pm - cool down from walking home.

8pm to 10pm - watch tv / dinner time

10pm to 12 pm- trying my very best to do online modules and play.

-Repeat the whole cycle for Tuesday and Thursday-

What about wed and fri?

8am to 6pm - work(internship)

6pm to 7.30pm - rushing to meet boyfren

7.30pm to 9.30pm - dinner and walk around.

9.30pm to 11pm - travelling home.

Can i have a more interesting life?

like go out and play? No, i will be too tired to do so.

How about watching movie? no, there isn't any more tickets available cos the movie we wanna watch is selling fast.

I wonder why am i even blogging cos right now my mind isn't in the right state. im having itchy rashes all over my body. it comes and goes as it like. it's frustrating ttm.

im not happy right now. hello, anyone there? can someone talk to me? maybe anyone, i just want him - my boyfren.

he is always busy. he is in army right now. i cant blame him for not being beside me cos he is very tired himself. army tortures him to no end, treating him like some cheap labour. i cant ask much from him too. i cant expect him to comfort me when he isn't feeling good himself, right?

blog, all i can do is rant here. well, just let me be.

i think im typing incoherently. my life has been very routine. i wanna break from this routine. even when im using computer, i only visits the few websites - facebook, youtube...what else? LOL. this sounds so pathetic. fear not, im gonna stop "patronizing" facebook. youtube is interesting, i always look at diff video. okay, im trying to change my routine here, to make myself feel better.

The rashes is still not going away. Im scratching it like once in a while. Hoping i can stop scratching it. Maybe i should cut away my hair, its pretty long, able to touch my lower back - consider long right? it's triggering my itch. -.-

anyway, just clicked preview. I have typed pretty long. I think i should stop.

oh~~~ too bad. i wanna type sth that is deep inside my heart, perhaps i should skip it.

Landy, lonesome.