I, Landy, born in Singapore under the sign of Cancer, 22 this year, Temasek Polytechnic alumni, bread lover, decided that I'm so cool and you're just jealous. xoxo, whatever.

-Nah, it's gone. Dont be sad.

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oh my, unknowingly ignored my blog for days.
bad bad girl.
what have i been doing for the past few days?
aha, nothing much.

little people asked me why i locked my blog.
oh well, so i see no need to lock it animore?
just read lorh. nothing much here also.
just a random girl ranting. :D

currently at comp lab.
waiting for myself to get sleepy.
HAHA. of cos not, though im getting a little hyperglycemia here.
shall get on to my work after this post.

Projects is disliked.
groupwork is not for me. :(
but i have to deal with it somehow.

poly life should be fun and enjoyable. :D


Landy, off

i dislike rain.
For rain bring hassle to people.
It let ppl feel cold and shiver.

i like rain.
For it is a crucial to the plants surrounding us.
It allows them to grow strong and healthy.

i dont like that coldness. :(
i wanna hide under blanket and sleeeeeeeeeep.

i should avoid going to that certain blog when im blog-hopping, though reading how failed that blogger is makes me happy. i should stop this saddistic action. :P
If there is really god, can i pray for a better society with less think-they-are-very-good people on this earth? ==
send them to other unknown planet if possible. (:


Oops, that's selfish of me. who cares? :P

Landy, off

AND HOW MANY TIMES MUST IT HAPPENED FOR ME TO LEARN?
i
lost
my
thumb
drive
again!
ITS THE FREAKING FIFTH TIME.
wakao!

seriously siol.

aniway, have backup at others thumb drive. LOL.
shall carry on with my work.


landy, stupid.

Hey Hey! i need to start exercising. my stamina is -weak.
i ran up the slope early this morning and im panting quite heavily. thats bad. D:
Have to come up with plan.
MEAL PLANNING! applying what i learn. wahahaha.
and not forgetttting theeeee EXERCISES. HAHA.

oh my, im soooooo happy for some stupid reason. im really some saddist. DOTS!
im laughing at other's unhappiness. HAHA. bad girl.
if he still cant see the fault that he has, he shall destined to be a failure. (:

oh well, i have to constantly remind myself alot things. seemed like my memory space is getting smaller. :(
have to slp more..LOL!



Landy, high

Its Thursday?

The similar experience occur again.

well, camp just over. i will say i didnt do a fantastic job as of my position.
i will not use "becos is my first time" as my excuse. i will rather say, please give mi more chance to let me learn. i must admit i did a sucky job as an assistant camp comm. i didnt know the program flow as well as others. i didnt know how to answer alot qns being thrown at me throughout the entire planning. the things i did wasnt as great either. i know i dont deserve any clapping and praising, this doesnt mean you can directly shoot me without giving me any respect. imagine this happened to you. i have actually let it pass, and u raise it up again. please, think before you talk.

Please dont say things like " im not pinpointing any ppl" cos the things you typed is as plain as it is - to shoot a particular ppl. from what i see, the thing said are just excuses. i know im not good, i will kindly step down if u were to voice it out, if not, please dont shoot ppl behind their back. we are all still learning, is not like you are perfect.

im trying very hard not to give up and i hope i will not, all this are just talks.


Landy, vexed

It's not a bad option afterall.
On the other hand, hanging on, trying hard to achieve the seemingly tough result so as to prove that "i am capable" to others might suit my competitive character. It's a tough road to walk on. Right now, i have no confident in walking this path, i might die walking through it. Obviously, after this walk, i might become a "more capable" person. But the loneliness i get from there is seemingly increasing. i have no desire to stay on.
Does giving up right now means i am a loser?
i admit that i am a failure in handling stress, from past till now. It's a lucky thing that i didnt go crazy due to stress(maybe i'm on my way to it).
Is it right to say that i should not give myself extra stress and concentrate on what i'm supposed to do? The role as student - to study and score well.
Entering the month of june, i been on this position for at least 2 mths. It's not the peak season, we aint really that busy. Still, i realised i wasn't of much help to the commitee. i asked lots of questions. i dont know what to do. i felt lost. i didnt do anything. why am i here for? what is my role in this corporate? To shoulder the responsibility as a QuarterMaster? This role ain't giving me any happiness. what for hang on to create more unhappiness to myself? i believe i'll be fine surviving without it.

Maybe afterall, i do have an answer to every of my little questions that is written (or not written) here. I'm going to dump my responsibility to others. im leaving. well, a loser afterall.

The recent event shall be my last event in this corporate.
It might be a good thing afterall, having 1 less incapable ppl.
i'm mentally drained, and no one will be able to persuade me.
This year is not a good year at all.
There's more to settle, and it will be settle soon.
Hope the new term will not be a lonely one.


Landy, tired.

*ah choo* *ah choo* :+(

Waah, this blog so dusty. *sweep *sweep*
haha. okay, this is retarded.
actually i been coming back to my blog during this period of time, and didnt expect myself to really not blog for so many days. Well, blogging does take up some times. i saved that "some time" of mine. haha. hmm, is there still people who will read this blog? (do tag if you're still reading, cos i'm curious. :P)

haha, i am still in the midst of term test. It is really halfway through, just took 2nd paper of the week. i didnt do well according to the comparison by other. haha. i'm really sad. i couldn't focus well with those distraction of phone ringing and all. no matter how much i dislike, i couldnt change the fact that i need to sit for that test. tmr is another test, i will say i only studied halfway. i went to slp straight away after i got home. what a wonderful move.

i dont feel very alert even though i had just slpt for 2 hours. my body is so greedy for sleep. well, talking so much about tests earlier on, lets talk about sth else. i wonder, is this the right place for me to type all this out? i seriously feel weird locking the blog. hmm..shall give some tots to it. haha.

so much talking about how i wanna change, i dont seemed to be changing. the duty assigned to me seemed to have stay stagnant. so much of how i wanna prove to other, i did nth much. Maybe from the very start, i shouldnt have gone for the interview. i shouldnt have take on this position. its ain't making me any stronger. it's making me feel weak. i dont see the need to do all these, i dont wanna do all these.

aside from that, i am pretty caught up by my indecisiveness and playfulness. i could have achieve alot more if i could made some decision more swiftly. that goes back to me having to change.

Changes, it's so hard to make it.

i find myself talking quite incoherently.
i shall stop and settle my thinking before i decides to blog again.


till then.