I, Landy, born in Singapore under the sign of Cancer, 22 this year, Temasek Polytechnic alumni, bread lover, decided that I'm so cool and you're just jealous. xoxo, whatever.

-Nah, it's gone. Dont be sad.

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♥Afiqah
♥Jing Hui
♥Nicholas
♥Shaun
Wayne
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♥YunRu

Its awesome to see how my counter number increases everyday.
Is it because my URL is random-ness?
like ppl search on "random stuffs" cos they're bored and they found my blog.
Cos if im not wrong, the counter i set, was per IP address basis. LOL.
Just curious who reads my blog everyday.
Cos the number jumps everyday.
And even the stats from bloggers is giving me a good mood.
I wonder if the stats is lying. LOL.
Its so frequent.
Alright, enough with the "oh-my, it-so-incredible" feelings.

My body seemed to be drained of energy. Im feeling lethargic even though i just woke up.
And sleep is never enough for me.
Did some sleepbug enter my body? ><~~~!
Maybe i rested too much.
Body becomes lazy.
blah~~




Oh well~~


Landy, puzzled.

1 week past like how F1 zoomed past me yesterday.

The sound F1 racecar produced is really deafening!
I went out to serve drinks and i didnt have time to wear the earplug, the next moment i know was my ear hurts to the point it start to produce an "eeeee~~~" sound.
I was so afraid that i become deaf. I dashed to my manager and said, " can you talk to me? like anithing? cos i wanna see if i can still hear a thing." D:
Overall, The job was tough. 10bucks/hr isnt that nice at all but i have little treats from customers every now and then. (too chio liao..bo bian. LOL)

i couldnt really rmb what i did for the past 1 week, just roughly know from my previous post barh. I couldnt really recall the details.
hmm..let me think..
Oh yeah, i did shows.
I was really mad at how irresponsible someone can get.
I couldnt bring myself to do such a thing thats why i hang on till now.
Well, we have no rights to stop others so just do the best we can.

I had an eventful week and hope this coming week will be a good one too.
A little patience really helps alot. (:
Gonna spend more time at home this week, to accompany my mom. :3

Shall go type email now..


Landy, contented.

Okay, so i spend my monday slacking away.
I had planned to do sth but end up doing other things.
This whole week is gonna be fully packed.
Tmr, i am going to school early morning to do MISC stuffs. haha..
Then to my fren's house to get mooncake. wahaha..Finally.
Excited over this year mid-autumn festival. also dont know why. LOL!
Then home sweet home.
Am gonna pack the house tmr.
So, my Tuesday is packed.

Then Wednesday, Im going back to school(again).
I know, its holiday now..i missed school too much, can? :P
Going back for CCA.
Kinda missed doing shows too.
Its an indoor show, slack siol~~ LOL. :X
Well, its a rehearsal and it is gonna burn my wednesday off.

Followed by thursday~~~
Yeah, you got it. School again!
blah blah blah..
I dont know what's happened cos i haven been through it.
HAHA, is a different feelings blogging about things you gonna do and not things you had done. LOL.

And its friday, saturday and Sunday~~~~
Im going to work!!
Another 3 days burn off..

So this week im literally packed.
Hope my mom dont hate me for that. :X


im telling my whole week schedule for nth. LOL!~
Cos i wouldnt be blogging for the next few days marh...
so must blog now, when im still free. haha.. :P


And after this week, i gonna be very very free again.
Maybe i should really consider working with shaun and nic. haha..
well, shall blog again next week then. (:




Landy, freeatthismoment.

Why am i so afraid to reject?
Becos ppl will be unhappy about it?
Why do i have to please them?
I dont get it.







Why....
Why am i so unhappy...






argh..






no mood to blog..







Landy, suicidalmode.

I had been eating non-stop for the past few days.

I been painting my parents room for the past few hours.
Its going to complete!
Waiting for the paint to dry so that can put on the second coat.
My hands is filled with dried paint. ==!
My feet too! :(
But is alright, was quite fun.
Its tiring as well.

Hasn't been sleeping well, wonder how long can i last.
Lastly,



I JUST FOUND OUT ONE FUNCTION OF BLOGGER.
IT'S AWESOME. LOL.
noob me. haha..
Didnt regret using blogger. :P



Awww..there's meeting in the end..==


Landy, excited.

And thats how im feeling right now.
I didnt say i didnt want to help. I just wanna you to do it yourself. I was thinking, you look okay. I supposed you could do it yourself.
Okay, i admit that my tone wasnt very friendly, but hey, im not as patience as you thought i am.
I am a girl with very short fuse (im trying to lengthen it.)
I have been showing the best i could to you but that doesnt mean i could sustain it.
I been hoping for your recovery everyday.
Its not just because i dont wanna see you suffer. Its also because i dont want to see the people around you to suffer.
I know i didnt do much, and precisely because of this. I feel tired even though i didnt do much, what about him?
I know you feel guilty for asking him (no, i dont think you asked him for anithing), rather, he do it willingly. And so, people around you have to be some obedient servant serving you? cmon.
Im trying not to use harsh words here but im reaching my threshold.
I am someone who needs my sleep.
Im easily satisfied. You let me sleep well and feel full, im happy.
Not being able to rest well will cause me to have some sort of mental breakdown.
Im not trying to say that you're not letting me.
Its just, by calling people and tell them that you're not feeling well could do little help to alleviate the situation.
Its disturbing me, seriously.
Im like tensed up please.
ITS THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVING DARK EYE RINGS.
And just because my tone was alittle harsh, you could shove my hands off when i tried to hold you.
Do you know how fucking it hurts me?( not physically, you know)
Do you know everytime i see you in agony, i said in my heart that if i could, i am willing to take over you so that you could feel better.



haiis.

I should understand hw you feel too.
You're the one suffering, not me.
It's naturally that you wish for someone to take care of you.
Though i rant so much, im sorry for the harsh tone that i had used.




Oh well, over with that. ( i wonder how to apologise to her.. ==!)
I wonder who reads my blog.
Can you just tag me when you see this?
Im just curious though, even just a random bloghopper. :P

Oh yeah! Before i forgot, i had a great day today.
We went to watch "Going the Distance".
First M18 movie i watched in cinema.
I think we all looked old. The ticket tearer (or whatever you called it) didnt check our IC. ==
Oh well.
The movie erm erm erm, funny. i laughed alot. haha.
After movie, we went to had buffet, and i ate 3 hours straight! (sinful please. LOL)
Sincerely thankful to (not in order)
Zi chao!
Afiqah!
Shaun!
Tze Kheng!
Nicholas!
<3

I dont think i need any breakfast, lunch or even dinner for tmr. :X
Okay, this post is getting too long.

Pleasedotagyo.



Landy, tired.

I hope for a stronger me.

Sometimes, i wished to be alone cos true friends are hard to find.
Hyprocrites are everywhere.
Please dont talk to me if you think that i sucks.
Please dont act friendly and give me hopes that you are good when you are not.
Please get out of my life.
Im getting out of this circle soon. Im tired.

I used to think that im capable but i was wrong.
I used to think that im strong but i was wrong.
I used to think that im clever but i was wrong.
I used to think that kind souls are everywhere, (and again) i wasn't quite correct.
I used to think that if i am true to others, i will get back the same treatments. This doesnt apply to everyone.
Life seriously sucks when you think negatively. damn.

oh well, im not shooting anyone in particular. Just general arh~~
At least i think i still have friends around me that will help me out if i were to drown(i dont know how to swim. LOL)
Im actually thinking about someone when im typing the previous sentence. That someone is really good, she makes me feel better after the phonecall with her. She was on the train when i called her. You know who you are. *wink*

lastly, i dislike gossip. blah.
人言可畏啊。 请大家积点口德。=X



Landy, stillfeelingsad.

Yesterday night was cool.
been long time since i last watched a movie in cinema. haha~~~

alittle disappointing as the movie has no link to the previous movie.
suddenly one big guy come out, who the fuck is this guy?!
and the zombie is like lvl-ed up lorh.
The movie focus too much on the 3D effects, i dont like. ==
oh well, its over~ LOL
thn some kind soul drive me back home.


i was thinking, i shouldnt be back there. blah~~~
Just seemed like my fault, is it?


Landy, unsure.

THE SEM TEST IS OVER FOR ME.

*ahem*

So, its the start of sept. Sem test is just a few days time, followed by 6 weeks break. Awesome.
I had planned not to waste such a long holiday lazing at home so i started looking for part time jobS. First, i send lots of resumes out to jobs of my liking and also within my capabilities. Then i realised, actually part time jobs dont need resume one. haha. Cos people wouldnt want to hire you if you're just working for such a short period of time. So i stopped sending.

On the other hand, i was expecting myself to get into the TIP that i signed on before school close for YOG breaks. And OH! "Due to overwhelming number of applicants, we like to inform you that you have not been successful in your application."
*instantaneous :( appear on my face*
i started "@&#(^@$!%^@#%" non-stop then my sis came to me and said, "things dont always go as what you planned." So i stopped my ranting and i tot maybe i can go look for another job thn.

This is when someone called and asked me that am i interested and can i go down for a job interview. *happy*
I went all the way down to bugis to find out that it MLM. ==
Nvm, then a msg came in saying that i was shortlisted for a job interview. *HAPPY ONCE AGAIN*
This time is real.LOL. Its at international plaza. So i went down for interview, everything was smooth until today. They send me a msg saying that they cant give me the job. zZz.

So my hope is like smashed once and again.
I am not gonna give up yo. I really dont wanna waste my holiday just like zZz... ==
I was thinking maybe i fan tai sui. LOL!
Have to go pray. hahahaha.


Oh well....



Landy, moody.