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I, Landy, born in Singapore under the sign of Cancer,
22 this year, Temasek Polytechnic alumni, bread lover, decided that I'm so cool and you're just
jealous.
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Saturday, November 5, 2011, 7:27 PM
I had an emotional break down yesterday. The sadness welled up each time my arm/hand got scalded. There was this major spillage onto my hand that caused me to completely lost it. Hot alkali dripped down my hand, sense of touch became retarded all of a sudden. Million of things running through my mind as i placed my hand under cool running water to wash off the alkali. "Why am i the only one in the lab?" "why do i have to do everything myself?" "why cant they have more initiative?" "am i a bad leader?" "what else can i do?" ..... I tried hard to force myself not to cry but the feelings was unbearable. Tell me now, am i stupid? At that very moment, I find myself so weak. My tears flowing endlessly as thought all the sadness that i have been tolerating are exploding out through my crying. I swear i will hyperventilate if i didnt control my breathing at that time. Today, i spend the whole day rotting. I did literally nothing but my mind wasn't at peace. Im thinking of my MP. My body was procrastinating but my mind isn't going with it. Its an annoying feeling. I have to clear the thorns before i can start on my work again. Efficiency level has dropped tremendously. This has got to stop, before sth worse happen. Landy, injured. » different approach
Wednesday, November 2, 2011, 7:09 PM
Im tired. Okay, who isn't? I think is those who doesn't use brain when doing things. Having mini chat here and there with frens who are also leader for their own MP, we all have the same complains about team mates not working up to expectation. They are thinking that leaders have to do everything for them? I dont think answer fall from sky, then why are they not working for it and expect it to pop out from nowhere? Are they not using their brain? I have taken the attitude of heck care. You know, do whatever you like, i am not gonna care. So, it been 2 whole months since i started my MP. It has progressed far from scratch but its still not enough cos the project should be at the stage of getting results and not solving problems. If i can succeed in getting the result i want this friday, it will be a breakthrough. I hope it works. Thats all for now. Landy, sick of MP. |